this one tingles my heart. Really?

Some people will love each other until the day they die, spending the majority of their life apart. 

So is the dark side of love

my favorite quote of all time

Random surveysss

Well, its been kinda boring day for me. So I decided to answer all these questions. I know. NOOOOObody cares. But what the hell.

1.       The last person i held hands with? Him..<3 p="">

2.       I am quite an outgoing girl. Depends on who am i with. I can be the life of a party if I want to. Haha

3.       I am looking forward to see my families now. Especially my parents. And of course, him.

4.       Am i easy to get along with? Yes. Very much. As long as you dont show me your immature attitude.

5.       Yes, been there, done that. I am not proud of it anyway.

6.       I dont know. Haven’t done that yet. But it would be very sweet for him to take care of me when I’m drunk.

7.       Yes. Everyone wish for their relationship to last long. Key for a long-lasting relationship? Never talk about break ups.

8.       Him. Aaaaaaand my brothers that lives miles away from me.

9.       Talking about sex? Yes. I am very much bothered by any questions about sex. Especially when the questions come from the opposite gender. Oh come on! Ask your girlfriend instead lah.

10.   Him. Conversations i ‘d lose my sleep for.

11.   Its from my brother, about his new laptop that costs ME a fortune. See how big your sister’s love for you?

12.   Abortion. Hmm.. Well, if the abortion is for the mother’s safety and good, then it’s a must. But, if the baby is from  your hard-night-party and you dont even know who the father is, or even your so called sweetheart doesn’t want to keep the baby, well fuck you. Seriously. Go kill yourself. Pandai buat pandai tanggung la kan.

13.   Well it depends. I love going to party. Crowds juga kan? But i dont like going to the mall when its Christmas Eve atau Chinese New Years Eve to do last minute shopping. The crowds. Waoo.. Crowds juga kan?

14.   No, i believe in destiny and prayers. No such thing as luck or miracles. Everything came from God.

15.   Idk. Its summer all year long here. Everything is fucked up. Except him and my family.

16.   Let’s see.. Hm.. Yes and yes?

17.   I hope so. Like in the movie. What was it again? Upside Down?

18.   I dont even remember his name anymore. Haha

19.   No. I love to keep my bath time short and simple. Teda buih2. Ingat org putih ka.

20.   I live in an apartment. I have like 40 plus neighbours. Do i like my neigbours?  I dont even know them.

21.   Keep coming back for something or someone even when i know i am not supposed to do that.

22.   I would very much love to travel to Europe countries. Somedayyyy

23.   No. I trust everyone around me. That is my another bad habit.

24.   My favourite part is when i walked out from my bathroom feeling fresh, putting on my pyjamas, tied my hair in a bun, and sleep.

25.   My ‘muffin-top’. Urgh!

26.   I wiggle around, check for my handphone for any text messages or missed calls when i was asleep, reach for my towel and walk to the bathroom.

27.   I am very much satisfied with my skin color now. Jangan jak tambah hitam sudah.

28.   I am comfortable with my mother. I can tell her anything.

29.   Yes. And that is the most satisfying confession. Like ever.

30.   Get married. Now lets put a deep thought into this. I enjoy my simple and single life now. No commitment needed. When it’s 5pm, i went straight home. I can either go to sleep, or call my friends to meet up and have drinks, or even eat a whole bucket of ice cream in front of the tv until i cant feel my tongue anymore. When i am married and have children, can i still do that? No.

31.   Yes. But i rather let the locks go with the wind. Malas ikat.

32.   Oh my.. i have few names on the list. Haha. But please read number 9 again.

33.   How do you do that?

34.   Yes. Does warcraft counts?

35.   I’d choose food. Who needs music and tv when you got Haagen Daaz di tangan. HAHA

36.   Yes. He was my senior when Im still in training.

37.   You know what? The weather. Weather never fails. Haha

38.   Yes. Definitely. I hope i dont have to settle down with someone who is younger than me.

39.   Watsons and Guardians. They got everything!

40.   High school was like 6 or 7 years ago. I cant remember.

41.   Yes. Everyone can mess up the first time. Just remember when someone is willing to give you a second chance, dont fuck it up.

42.   Either i am about to blow up, or cry. Or i’m just hungry. Chill.

43.   Yes. My job requires me to smile everytime i meet someone new.

44.   I dont like both of the idea. Scary. I hate wide spaces. Do they have names for that? Ada phobia kali.

45.   No. I love to get my own space. I love my own space.

46.   When someday i finally decide to give up, and forget about the reasons why i held on for so long.

47.   Jangan jilat ludah ko sendiri. I can only remember that.

48.   When he told me that I’m beautiful. No matter how others say it, i prefer you.

49.   Yes, but someone knew about it. I hope he dont go around and tell anybody about it. I trust him.

50.   Japanese. Omaira..~ itu jak sya tau. haha

Hanazakari no Kimitachi e

In case you haven't noticed, i haven't update my blog since last year. Sometimes i dont have the urge to update my blog anymore, since there is nothing interesting happening around me. Lemme count, i've been stranded in Ranau for almost 3 months now, without any news about our job, or from the headquarters. Absolutely nothing at all. I'm getting tired of people asking," When will you start working?" or "No news yet?" or "How come you still doing nothing here?" or the most annoying question "Kenapa ko makin sihat ni sya nampak nampak?" and they burst to laugh. Seriously? Are you asking to be punched? Kenapa la kalau sya gumuk.. *sob

So, i ended up burying myself watching korean and japanese drama. Yeay! Not anime though, no one in our family watches the Animax channel on Astro. I dont even know why did my parents subscribe it? Anyway, today i'm going to write my first review about my currently most favourite Japanese drama. I know lots of you have watched this, but i'm still going to write my review anyway. hehe

Tada! Its the Hanazakari no Kimitachi e!! Also known as Hana Kimi. There are many version to this drama because of its interesting storyline. There are Taiwan version, which the heroin is played by Ella (S.H.E), and the Korean Version goes by the name To The Beautiful You. For your information, channel 393 or oneHD Astro will be airing this drama starting 12th of September. You're welcome!;) But for me, I prefer this japanese version anyway, mostly because of Ikuta Toma. He is so cute i wanna kiss him. HAHA! 

This is a story about a girl (Mizuki) who was raised in California, falls in love with a high jumper from Japan (Sano). Sano gets hurt from an accident when he was saving Mizuki from the robber, and she felt responsible for his injury. Sano quit his high jump career and was leading a dull life, before Mizuki decided to disguise herself as a boy and enrolled in an all-boys high school in Japan where Sano attends to. And then there is Nakatsu, who unknowingly falls in love with Mizuki, and thought that he was turning into a gay and feels uncomfortable about it. He tries to cover his feelings for Mizuki with various of hilarious ways.

There are other interesting side character in this drama, which is why this drama worth the watch. There is Nanba senpai who is the playboy in this drama. He is the dorm 2 head dorm, and also one of the member of Sakura Committee. Although he is a cheeky playboy, he is also a very responsible head dorm, and takes care of his subs welfare. 

There is also this one gay-like character who loves his Nanba-senpai. He always follows him around like a puppy, and played pranked for each of Nanba's current girlfriend. He doesn't like Mizuki though, but somewhere along the eisode he started to get along with Mizuki. 

The ending is quite sad, it potrays the brotherhood and friendship among the characters. Mizuki have to go back to the States because her identity was revealed by the boys in the high school. But she left after she graduates from the school and earns her respect from the boys and the principal herself. This drama is full of friendship, comedy, laughter, love, tears and brotherhood of schoolmates. You really should watch this drama, i promise you wont regret it.:)

Thats it guys, i'll write more reviews soon. Till next time..:)

*Disclaimer: I do not own any of the pictures shown above, no copyright infringement intended. All materials belongs to their rightful owner. 

happiness is..

1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favourite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake ... (or vanilla ... or strawberry!)
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach
16. Finding a 20-pound note in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. Eye contact with a hot member of the opposite sex.
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful/good looking.
23. Laughing at an inside joke.
24. Friends.
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Playing with a new puppy.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies (and eating them...!).
37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much-desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise.
42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

that guilty feeling

this morning i went to a school for official purpose, which is next to the only RC church in town. When my work is done, I passed through the church, and couldn't help but wondering why there are so many people standing outside the building, shaking hands and i can hear gospels. Then it struck like a bullet to my brain, that today is Sunday. The day which i ought to be in church. Seriously the longer i'm here, the reckless i'll be. I have to attend mass, i have to.

st peter claver, ranau

seriously we miss them.

yesterday evening, when we went back to the quarters, we saw a Silver Viva with tinted windows parked in the parking lot. One of my friend said,"that looks just like Afiq's car, kan? it would be nice if he's really inside the car smiling at us like he always did."
today morning, me and my friend went to the cafe for breakfast. When we get there, she turned around and looked at me, and said,"how i want them to be here, i miss their laugh and annoying jokes. especially in the morning. dont you?" yeah deb, i miss them too. but dont worry we still have each other k..:))