its christmas already?

still have 1 week and 5 days to go before that time of the year comes knocking at our door again. Its 12 days before christmas!!! i haven't decorated the tree yet, which is still packed inside the box. My oh my.. and i have been watching this Christmas Cook programme.. i wanted to try one recipe so bad but tengoklah macamana nanti..:).

if only my tree besar macamni. 

My little brother will only come home for Christmas on the 27th, which means he will be celebrating Christmas alone in the hostel, so far away from our family. so Momma dont feel like cooking anything special during the Christmas Eve, and i fully understands that.:( kesian c iduk kan.

will be updating whenever i can. because i dont have internet line at home. i dont feel like going out everyday just to update my facebook and twitter. Its december and its cold here, last night i wear 3 layers of sweaters and still i can feel the chill masuk pigi tulang. Ranau oh ranau..

this view always make me want to come back home

heartsrings..:((

tmn botani, penang

village mall, sg petani

tmn botani, penang

Listen to what I have to say about us..

I’ve cried a river for you guys today.. silly me..:))..

See.. when we started our very 1^st class together, the one which each of us have to stand up and introduce ourselves, I actually hate the idea of being together with you guys for the whole semester. Seriously shit. But now, if I can start this all over again, I’d still choose you guys to be my PLK-mates. Because, how can you ask for more when the best is already yours?..:)) Even if our time together is maybe less than 3 months, but for me its better to have real friends in such a short time, rather than a lifetime friendship when all you do is being fake and hypocrite to each other.

afiq

To Afiq. There’s so many things left unsaid when we said our last goodbye. I cant recall which memory is the best, because I believe that, for us every moment we spend together is the best moment we will always keep close to our hearts. I still remember the days we use to spend together at class, texting each other about having our lunch together, playing games and teasing each other saying how bad your game skills are, going to the mall together and went to various types of boutique shop, and went out with nothing. After all the stupid and embarrassing things we did, still you choose to be with us. For all these, thank you Afiq. Thank you for lending your car to us, so that we can go ‘ronda-ronda’ easily during school breaks. Thank you for listening patiently to our annoying jokes, repetitive gossips, and not to get mad when we call you every silly names we can think of. Thank you for being happy with us, and thank you for being such a good friend to us. You are the best brother anyone could ask for. We love you, and you know that..:)

king

To King, where should I start?.. We’re sorry for not being there for you when she hurt you. We’re sorry for not telling you the truth earlier so that you can move on without her. We’re so sorry my dear, but don’t worry, when she chooses other people over you, that is her loss. Its her loss for not seeing how wonderful you are, and how you can amuse everyone in a very different way. Among the guys there, you’re like the sunshine. They cannot smile when you’re not around, you cherish them as you cherish us too. Thank you for always keeping us company when we needed you, thank you for helping us with the cleaning at our new home, thank you for always smiling, and make our day way much better, thank you for the DSLR camera which we always carry around no matter where we go, and thank you for just being there for us, and knowing that we can count on you.. You are the best companion anyone could ask for..:))

How time flies, isn’t it? Now all that’s left is me, Wani, Deb and Joan. Oh my, I cant even imagine going to the class everyday but without you two being there. When we go back to our quarters for new semester next year, we will always have this imagination where King would shout our name from the balcony, Afiq’s car is parked outside, Bobo is teasing Deb about how cute she is, and Joan telling all of you to shut up and come over to our house. Our PLK will be empty without you guys, even the mall will look different too. Everything will look different, but don’t worry we will get through this. We love you guys, and knowing that you two would always be there for us, ALWAYS, is the best promise we can have. Promise that you wont forget us, will you? We are on our own now without you two, and we promise to take care of each other here, don’t worry Afiq.. And to King, you’re one in a million and we love you too..:))

p/s: take care of KIKI and AFIQ JR k???... so that everytime when you look at it, you’ll think of us.. So that we will always be together..

Love And Kisses

Wani, Jet, Deb, Joan

Beyoncé - Best Thing I Never Had

What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
I say what goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around...

There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I must've been out of my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I, I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
I thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good lookin' out

[Chorus:]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the (best thing I never had)
You turned out to be the (best thing I never had)
And I'm gon' always be the (best thing you never had)
Oh yeah, I bet it sucks to be you right now

So sad, you're hurt
Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care?
You don't deserve my tears
I guess that's why they ain't there
When I think realize the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and baby yes I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
I thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
Baby good lookin' out

[Chorus:]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the (best thing I never had)
I said, you turned out to be the (best thing I never had)
And I'll never be the (best thing you never had)
Oh baby I bet sucks to be you right now

I know you want me back
It's time to face the facts
That I'm the one that's got away
Lord knows that it would take another place, another time, another world, another life
Thank God I found the good in goodbye

[Chorus:]
I used to want you so bad
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the (best thing I never had)
Oh you turned out to be (the best thing I never had)
And I will always be the (best thing you never had)
Ooh, best thing you never had!

I used to want you so bad
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the (best thing I never had)
Oh you turned out to be the (best thing I never had)
Ooh, I will never be the (best thing you never had)
Oh baby, I bet it sucks to be you right now

What goes around, comes back around
What goes around, comes back around
I bet it sucks to be you right now
What goes around, comes back around
I bet it sucks to be you right now
What goes around, comes back around
I bet it sucks to be you right now

Halloween!!!

some people says that Halloween is just another nonsense celebration, like Valentine's Day. Its not even an official holiday in my country. So what i decided to do during insomniac nights like these, is google-ing over stuffs which i dont really care at all. Macam ni Halloween stuff lah. And i found some interesting myths to be shared with you guys!! hehe..

1) Unmarried women were told that if they sat in a darkened room and gazed into a mirror on Halloween night, the face of their future husband would appear in the mirror. However, if they were destined to die before marriage, a skull would appear.

2) The practice of keeping a carved pumpkin with a lit candle inside, comes from the story of a man named Jack. Jack was a miser and was not allowed an entry in heaven as well as hell. It is believed that, he was cursed to wander on the streets of earth for his sins. He wandered on the earth with a lantern made up of a carved turnip till the day of his judgment. That's how the name 'Jack-o'-lanterns' was kept.

3) Legend claims that if you see a spider on this particular night, it could be the spirit of a deceased loved one who is watching over you.

4) A person born on Halloween will have the gift of communicating with the dead. *owkay this one is stupid

5) the barrier between the worlds of the dead and the living is weakened on halloween and spirits can cross over to our world

6) The ancient Celts thought that spirits and ghosts roamed the countryside on Halloween night. They began wearing masks and costumes to avoid being recognized as human.

a surprise visit..:')

left to right - Deb, Ema, Kak As, Cyn, Jet, Casey, Jo, Khoo, Wani

let the pictures do the talking..:))

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quick updates

well, its been a while since my latest update. Been super busy with my practical, i'm looking forward for any holidays. Is there any? *Nope.. Okay, so this week we've been visiting wharfs after wharfs.. Actually i really enjoy looking at those big ships at closer look, they reminds me of movie POTC.  I'll let my pictures do the talking..:))

Penang preserve their old buildings well.

virgo cruise. i guess that was my lucky day..:)

inside the cruise. mcm titanic kan?

we have that big old clock in sg petani but i think this one is better looking.

me with my plk mates.

big ship. i dont know what the name is but i was very2 excited to take pictures..:)

well i guess thats all for today. it has been hell of a week but i survived..!

i told you so

Dear Jet,

I told you so, right? I told you not to play with emotions, it will only cause you tears, and those painful memories come rolling back to you again. How does it feel? You recognize this feeling, you've been here before. And it took like forever for you to crawl and stand at your own feet again. This time, I'm not sure when will you put all of these behind you again. But dont you worry, no matter how I bleed, I will always heal but there will be scars. I will heal for you, and we both going to survive from this one again. You just have to endure this for a little while, i'm healing faster than you know. Experience made me stronger. 

Yours trully,

your heart..<3

my precious..

melaka, our very first trip together. do you still remember?

we were showing our bracelet. one is from masol, the other one is from kundasang. became our trademark aite?

christmas celebration at kundasang.. one of the great moment ever.

we love to sing. all of us.:)

pusat kusta, this picture was taken this semester. early jan.

genting highland, pahang. chilling.

batu caves. the most spontaneous trip ever. haha..

stairs of batu caves.

we slept at kl sentral for the whole night. they said it was my fault. nevermind. hahaha..

bukit bintang. 5days 4 night!

penang. the others couldnt make it but its okay, the trip with gaman was a blast..:)

friendship is a kind of mutual compassion & understanding relationship. They dont come with fragile stickers and knives to stab at someone's back. Friendship is tendency to desire what is best for each other, and trust in one another to go for emotional support when you're having a bad day and you feel like crying. Have you found anything like it? Or the moment you thought that this is it, this is the friend that you have been waiting for  but in the end they're just like everybody else who doesnt care about you like you did.

im not talking about myself, nor someone. I thank God for His blessings, He gave me the most precious circle of friends ever. Whenever and wherever i go, i would always find a group of people that i can fit in and i can make myself comfortable with them without even trying. People may laugh at us, people may deceive us but hey? i got you, you got me. thats all the back up we need. ( Casey, 2010 ).

today after 2 years of studies here in kskb, i finally went home with heavy hearts, an unexpected feeling huh? of course i feel happy too, because my studies are finished, the suffering are gone, im going back and meet my families. But, no matter how i try to please myself with those 'happy' reasons, i still cant find a reason to stop crying. I held them in my arms few hours ago, and they saw me crying. there's just too many things to say, too many things i wish i didn't do and i wanted to tell them how sorry i am, but i cant. its like im losing my voice to speak of anything. the only thing that i said over and over again is "you'd be good here." Im sorry, i wish i can hug you longer, but the taxi is leaving. So i went in, buried myself in tears as i watched all of you disappeared. we didn't talk or try to comfort each other in the taxi, all i can hear is just sobbing voices. How sad is that?

When we think back about out great memories together, how can you not to cry? with those happy faces, happy laughter, happy eyes and happy everything. God i'd give anything just to relive those moments. Maybe some of you will think that i am overreacting, silly me. But good friends, especially 'mopongou' friends dont come very often. maybe you will find another one just like me, who laugh just like me and talk just like me. but for sure you will never find another 14 people who talk and laugh just like we did. you can go and search the whole world, mark my words. how can you not to appreciate what we have here?

do you still remember the night in melaka, where this two of our friend told us that they cant go with us, but in the end they actually followed us quietly and really gave us a big surprise? Well for me that was one of the greatest moment in my life, when we opened the door and see the two of you stands there and laughing at us. 3 days of laughs and smiles, how can i ask for more? Thank you God. Dont get me wrong, there's still a lot of memories that i cant forget, but for me the most unforgettable memory is when we celebrate our Christmas together at kundasang. The night where we exchanged gifts, hugged each other and opened our presents. Personally i like it when we sit in a circle, and tuck our foots into the blanket and 'sharing' moments.

my darls.

See how happy we were? would it still be the same after we graduated from college, have our own family and kids? i dare not to think about that. i love you guys, see? i dont ever want us to leave each other, even if we are separated by distance but we will always stay close to each other in heart. It wont be the same anymore after this, but let the happy memories that we had fills your mind everytime we think about each other. Life is not always a bed of roses, our friendship too have its own up and down. But that doesn't mean that we can sacrifice all of the great moments we have, just because someone said something bad, or did something that doesnt go with our flow. take care of each other, will you? watch out for your friend, be loyal, be respectful, but dont spoil them. its very sad, the moment when we hugged and wondering when can we see each other again. but i guess that this is life, a life that must go on. with or without your most beloved friends. love you casey, san, cory (my beautiful sisters), masol, nel, daryl, gaman, wan, gono, gibot, yong, ald, cyril (my charming brothers *sometimes annoying ) hahaha.. JK. mmmuuuahhh, hope to see you guys soon.