Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror


day 3 - dear parents


dear beloved parents, i wish you can see me now, longing to go back home just to see your face. im sorry for always making you worried ma, and im sorry for the distance between us, dad. im sorry to not be able to live up to your expectation, i know both of your hopes for me but i can't make it come true dad, mom. i hope you know how much i want to make you two proud of me,i tried everyday. i followed every words you said, i go to wherever place you want me to go and i read whatever books you told me to read. i'm willing to give my studies, my friends and my ambition up, just to satisfy your heart ma, i did. eventhough sometimes it feels like i might as well be dead when im trying to satisfy and be a perfect daughter for you, i kept it inside, thinking that this feeling might soon go away, so i can pretend that im okay again when im in front of you, that i can do this all over again without the feeling of giving up. but the truth is, i already broke down, many many times before. mom, dad i love both of you. so if i have to live my life based on your fingers pointing which way to go, i'd do it. 

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror



day 2 - dear crush..:)


i dont think i have any crush for the moment. its just an infatuation most of the time. cant really believe a hot blooded woman now can you? hehe..

it worth the reading..^^

listen, ive never been where you are right now. never. but i know this boy, 
and i know how you are feeling, he broke up with you right ? 
after telling you he loved you and calling you stupid (but grossly cute) pet names? 
like hunnybun and buttercup? yeah, i know he lavished you in compliments 
only to put himself down so you would stroke his fakely low ego. did he tell you he would teach you to skateboard? 
i bet be promised you a personalized song, did you talk about college, 
making plans that you would give anything to work out? did he tell you dream about him? 
or maybe he would always mention how he was laying in bed and wishing you were there. 
he dragged "i love you" out of you. didnt he? you werent ready and he even said that he would 
"drag it out of you sometime" yeah. don't deny it. he would talk to you last thing at night, and first thing in the mornig. 
he constantly mentioned losing sleep over you every night, 
but we both know he slept like a rock. 
he left you insanely sweet picture comments that made you smile everytime you thought about them, 
he made you love pictures that were sort of "bleh" before. did you delete those pictures after he broke your heart? yeah me to. 
all of yourfriends hate him now dont they? remember how happy they were for you? 
and how the agreed with you on how oerfect and great he was? they never warned you. 
no they made you push aside your worries. stop. don't blame them. if they had warned you, 
we all know you would have never listened. but please listen to this. 
i know you dont want to accept this but he played you, just like played me, and just like he played countless other girls before either of us. 
im sorry i wasnt around to war you, but i was still bitter. no i never called him mine, 
but he promised me so much, and built my hotes up so high, just remmeber, it's okay to cry. 
and refering to him as "asshole" is perfectly expected., because trust me, 
you'll end up talking about him just as often if not more, then before the breakup. there iwlll be the "one times" and the "i remembers" 
and once you think you're over him. watch out. you better keep your eyes close in the hallways. 
because i promise you. the next time you see him, he'll be all over some other girl. 
a little part of you will want to warn her, 
but no body will blame you for hating her an for blaming her for you pain, year you'll compare all guys to him, 
because aside from the man-whoreish, 
hear-breaker thing, he was perfect. he was everything you ever wanted or maybe you made that p. 
maybe the second he started to show interest, you made up this perfect guy in your head, and he just 
happened to be just like him. i bet "true love" ran through your mind. but no. im sorry/ but he never loved you. 
listen you will find the perfect guy fro you just like everybody says you will, and it will be soon. 
okay so i didnt believe it either. but im sotartign to, if not now, then in college, just wait. 
untill then you need to get over him. i dont know how, im still working on it, but it's possible. it has to be. 
simply because of how many girls this has happened to before. the most important thing is 
dont let him know he hurt you. don't let him know he could have youback in a heartbeat. 
don't give him that satisfaction/ make him thing you're completely happy. 
when he desides to wave at you like nothing ever happened, 
wave back. sure, but don't smile. make him think, 
he meant as nothing to you, as you obviously meant to him .<3 .

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

day 1 : dear best friend..:)

shila, sara, alvin, baz, sha (took pic)

best friend hang tough, they dont come with fragile stickers. keep away from those who stabs your back when you least expect it but never forget to forgive eventhough u'r not ready to talk to them yet. dear friends, thank you for being so wonderful to me, and i wish im an octopus so that i can hug 8 people at once. i'll be the sun to shine you when you are in your bright times, and for sure im willing to be your moon when you are in your darkest time. i'll stay beside you even when you dont feel like you want to talk, and i'll laugh at your jokes even when its not funny at all. i'll lend you my lunch money even if i have to starve for the whole day. i'll pick you up when you're fallen and i'll listen to every little thing you said because it would mean the world to me. love you always, your friend Bridget..<3

shila and sara                         casey, san

mopongou team

im plain bored..~

boredom..

One: pick one of your exes.
1. Who are they?: Ed

2. How long did you date for?: 6 years. give and take a few months.
3. Who dumped who?: i screwed up. 

4. Do you still find them attractive?: never seen him again
5. Do you still talk?: nope
6. What day did you start dating?: december 19, 2002
7. Do you have anything from this person (ex. their jacket, a gift they gave you)?: wau.. let me see.. hurm.. his jacket, his shirt.. there's too many of them, i cant recall.
8. How old are they now? How old were they when you were dating?:i think he's somewhat 25..
9. Do you remember their birthday?: august 8.
10. What color hair do they have naturally?: black.

Two: pick one of your teachers.
1. Who are they?: Miss Pat
2. What subject do they teach?: biology
3. Are they your favorite teacher? Why?: yes, although she might seem like a bit cranky but once you get to know her, she's a wonderful women and very inspiring.
4. Do you guys talk outside of school?: yeah.
5. Would you ever consider teaching the same subject they do?: i once have. but now, no i dont think so..
6. What color eyes do they have?: I don't look at her that much
7. Do they give a lot of homework?: just our required projects, lab report, field reports..
8. What kind of grades did you get in their class?: gooood, somehow..:)
9. Do they have any kids that go to your school?: no.. she's not married yet.
10. Do you know their first name?: Patricia

Three: pick one of your co-workers.
1. Who are they?:
2. What's their job?:
3. How old are they?:
4. Do you ever goof off with this person at work?:
5. How long have they worked there?:
6. Do you talk outside of work?:
7. Do you think they're attractive?:
8. Did you know each other before you were co-workers?:
9. What three words can describe them?:
10. Do you have any mutual friends? Who?: 

Four: pick a family member.
1. Who are they?: Sister
2. What's their relation to you?: Hmm. My sister!??

3. How often do you see them?: when i get back home during semester breaks
4. Do you share a last name?: Obviously.
5. Do you talk to them a lot?: i talk to her almost about everything.
6. Are they close to your age?: yeah. im 21 and she's 23
7. What kind of car do they drive?: kancil for the moment
8. Where do they live?: beluran
9. Who's older, them or you?: Her obviously.
10. What's their middle name?: carolina

Five: pick a celebrity.
1. Who are they?: all american reject
2. How are they famous?: idk
3. Describe their appearance.: totally hot.
4. Who are they married to/dating?: i dont wanna know
5. Do they do a good job at what they do (ex. if they're a singer, do they sing well)?: their music genre are compatible to my taste.
6. How old were they when they became famous, do you know?:Hmm. noo
7. Where are they from?: uk, i think.
8. What languages do they speak?: English . . maybe more? 
9. Do you find them attractive?: Yes. 
10. When's their birthday?: I dont know :( 

Six: pick one of your close friends.
1. Who are they?: sarah & tiqa
2. What color eyes do they have?: naturally brown, both of them. but sara loves to wear contacts so i dont get to see her real eye color often. hehe..
3. Have you ever been to their house?: tqa, yes. sara, not yet.
4. Do their parents like you?: I hope so. 
5. Who are they dating?: tqa is miss independent, while sara got julsun..:)
6. Do they wear glasses, contacts, or neither?: sara, yeah.
7. How far do they live from you?: Too far
8. Do they have any body mods?: ??
9. How long have you been friends?: Since im in uitm.
10. Where do you usually see each other?: In my hometown, sabah.

Seven: pick one of your enemies.
1. What's their initials?:
2. How long have you been enemies?:
3. What did they do to you, anyway?:
4. How often do you see them?:
5. Do they still bother you?:
6. What color hair do they have?:
7. What grade are they in?:
8. Do they live in your town?:
9. What song reminds you of them?:
10. How tall are they?: 

Eight: pick one of your classmates.
1. Who are they?: casey
2. What class do you have together?: all.
3. Is that the only reason you talk?: No. she's one of my besties..
4. Who gets the better grades?: she does, obviously.. but most of the time we r equal.
5. What's their dress style like?: Lovely.
6. How do they style their hair?: straight, black locks.
7. Do they like the class?: idk.
8. Have you had any classes together before?: Nope.
9. Who do they talk to in the class besides you?: san and many others..
10. What's an inside joke between you two?: our very own 'high 5'

Nine: pick one of your siblings.
1. Who are they?:
2. What's the age difference between you two?:
3. Do they look more like their mom or dad?:
4. Do they look anything like you?:
5. Would you switch names with them?:
6. What's their middle name?:
7. Are they full siblings, step siblings, or half siblings?:
8. Do you listen to the same music?:
9. Are you best friends?:
10. Do you have the same color eyes?: 

Ten: pick someone you find attractive.
1. What's their initials?: U
2. Have you ever kissed them?: nope
3. Do you have a chance with this person?: yeah, but i screwed it up.
4. Do you even want to date them?: Obviously.
5. How do you know them?: since forever, i think.
6. Do you have a crush on them?: Maybe.. more.
7. Where do they work?: he's a student just like me.
8. How old are they?: 21.
9. Do they go to your school?: Nope.
10. What color eyes do they have?: brown, i think so.

here's for you, mother.

beloved mother, Ms Olivia Aloysius

Today is 15 of September, 2010 ma. I haven't forget yet, today is your birthday. Last few weeks i thought of going back to Sabah, just want to celebrate today with you. But lastly i cancelled my plans due to financial crisis. Besides, i cant leave Oboy all alone here not going back with me. He will die jealous. So today, who will celebrate your birthday with you, ma? of course dad and adi are there with you, but its not the same without the whole pack of family member being there and celebrate this special day of yours, mother. I can still remember, back when we were still little, we use to wrap the sweets that you bought us using colored paper (origami i think) and give it to you as birthday present. You smiled and pretend to be surprised, you unwrap the present which obviously its the sweets that you just bought us, and kissed the 4 of us thank you. I really miss you mom. I once was a rebellious daughter, and you never failed to teach me what is wrong and what is right, either the soft or the hard way. every little thing that you taught me made me what I am today. If those days you didn't scold me for coming home late or just hanging out with crappy friends, maybe i would be left out by now. i would still sit on the same street, wear the same shirts and put on the same rebellious attitude until now. 

When i decided to move to other town to pursue my studies, you cried trying to make me stay and change my mind. I didn't listen to you. I followed my friend rather than listen to what do you have to say about living without parents in such a young age. Even if i listen, i would never believe in you. I haven't told you that i regretted doing so, i wished that i stayed back and listen to you. after 1 week i cried while im talking to you on the phone. i told you i was scared, i was terrified by the new surrounding and i want to go home. i know ur crying too mother, but you told me there's nothing to be worried about, nothing to be scared about and now there's no other way than to move forward. So i stayed for the whole 2 year in Keningau. Every year you would come to my school, just to watch me receive prizes and tokens of appreciations from the school. i did well in my high school year mom, and i know its all because im in ur prayer all the time. 

my family

Everytime i have to go and pursue my study in other places, she will always send me to the terminal, wait for me to catch my taxi, and she'll wait until im completely vanished from her eyes. Whenever im going back to KL, she will send me to the terminal, and would remind me of everything. From "dont forget to call me when you arrived" until "bye sayang, take care." i noticed her watery eyes whenever im leaving her. i didnt cry in front of her, i'll cry when she's out of my sight. i dont want to get too emotional, or else she will be like crying for the whole day. everytime i'm going back to Sabah, the first person i expect to see is her, with her big smile and her favourite line, "smpai suda ko jit?". gosh i miss her so much.. i just cant imagine when someday God take her away from us, maybe i'll go crazy. i just wish that when that day come, i would be strong enough to let her go.

Today is your birthday mom, i wish you all the happiness and please be patient for a while, i'll give you the luxury and everything i can afford when i start to work 2 years from now. im sorry for not being there this year, but i hope you know how much oboy and me missed you. i think about going home everyday. we love you, mom. Happy 49th birthday, may almighty God bless you with happiness and joyous life. Love you!

boy n jet : miss you mamy...:)

osonong sodopon..

kopisanangan tomod kumaa toinsanan tulun hiti blogspot ku. amu oku poh nokoumbal monulis id boros tokou, baino no kumoinsan. nung ki haro sala om silap, ompuno oku no dikoyu ngawi, yoku 'tanak baru blajar', tudukai oku no hinonggo salah ku, sama2 minsingilo boros tokou sondiri koni..:)? atukoi mirolot malayu ti dusun ku, siou no kopio. hehe..

Siou, au oku kaanu kopio mimboros do dusun, obuli id tararat la. mogolisun po tulu ku momusorou onu kopio boroson ku hiti blog ku, om orosian oku tomod nung haro sala dot boros dusun ku hiti, maan nopo lah kio. irak irakan tulun ti blog ku nga ingga ku tomod, koilo ie somonu ri. hehe..

Tama om tapa ku nopo 100% tulun dusun, nga au yolo mimboros dusun hilo walai, bahasa melayu tomod. Sikul do cina ie sinikulan ku di gulu poh, omoluan oku no mangaku do, obuli2 negi yoku mimboros cina toi ko dusun. omoluan oku no tomod. nokuro? sabap nga au oku pinoubas diolo urg tua ku mimboros do dusun mantad ie tanak oku po. Soira korongou oku tambalut toi ko topinai ku oturompus kopio mimboros do dusun nga, otukono oku no diolo. ahansan oku no da kiharo peluang blajar ti bahasa tokou sondiri.

Iso po kakaus ginawo ku nga, haro kopio jenis tulun d soira korongou haro sala ti boros dusun ku, okon nogi monuduk toi ko mimboros tosonong - sonong 'ugow, okon ko tugud ne mimboros.. ugu d ti bogia....", tu mirak nogi, sundung po ogumu tulun.. tokou nopo tulun do dusun, sama-sama minsingilo, sama-sama monuduk bahasa tokou, tungkus tokou sondiri. Kada papakaus ginawo tulun, au ih kasala mingumbal mimboros tomod bahasa tokou, asampin toi ko awu, 'master' toi ko awu, au kopio osonong kowoyo-woyoon dokoyu tugud no mingirak soira kasala tulun suwai mimboros. 'at least i'm willing to learn' ka d boros urg putih.

bah, aiso no d kanto boroson ku t. palan2 dokoyu mambasa. hehe.. kada kokuai onu nopo boroson ku hiti, siou nopo lah.