i dont wanna miss a thing

Cant believe i finally set my foot in Malacca, after years of wishing and dreaming. And what is the most exciting part? I went there with my beloved 'Mopongou' family. I dont have any relatives here, they are the only family i have, spending my time with them makes me forget about my longing for my hometown even just for a while. This is us. 

In the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures

Gono took the picture, this is him. ( nti dia mrh klu teda dlm pic..=p) 

The journey from Sungai Buloh to Seremban were filled with laughter and silly jokes, and did I mention its a 2 hour journey? Yeah, we DIDN'T stop laughing at all. I know probably the whole train were annoyed by us, but who cares really? LOL... 

So we arrived Malacca, probably around 8 or 9, I cant really remember. Casey, San, Sis Corry and me checked in, room number 3128, lotus wing 3 and level 12. I can still vividly remember!

from left : Casey, Sis Cory, me and San.

The first night was a BLAST! 

After we checked in, place our bags and stuffs, then we went to a place, called The Jetty. We were so damn hungry so we decided to eat there. But we ended up singing in KTV, and we ordered some side food and a few drinks. Its almost 12am when we decided to go back to the hotel. And something thrilling happened that night. 

FLASHBACK!! 

When we first discussed about this trip, two of our friend decided not to come, by saying that they are busy with their own plans. First one is Nelvin. He said that he cant come, he got another important things to do. Can you believe it? 

The second one is Gaman, he gave us the most silly excuses. he said,"sya maw cabut gigi...." And we were like,"what????" LOL!! can u believe that? he broke his promise to come with us to Melaka, just because of his appointment with the dentist..

We tried everything, just to persuade them to come, saying this and that, filled with emotional words and 'secret messages' among us, discussing just how to make sure that they'll come too. I lost hope when they said 'Enjoy your trip k?', so i said, thats it. If they want to come, then come. If not, there's nothing left to do.

on the way to melaka, i guess..=)

Back to the story!

So the first night went on smoothly. Just when i about to have my bath, the doorbell rings. We were shocked, looking at each other, wondering who might that be? I look at the clock, its almost 1 in the morning. The doorbell keep on ringing, and my legs weaken when they started to knock the door loudly. The guys went to hide in the bedroom, while the girls stayed in the living room. You want to know whats on my head? 

"What if they are burglars? Fully armed with M16 and all that?"

"What if they are some pickers? Holding daggers or knives?"

When Masol tried to open the door, my heart beats faster and faster, and then when we saw the person who behind all these, i almost passed out. Why? Its Nelvin and Gaman!!! They decided to give us a big major surprise, and for sure we had it. That is the most unforgettable moment and surprise that i ever had. We hugged, and laugh, and talk all night. For nelvin and gaman, if you are reading this, i want you two to know, that you cant imagine how happy we are to see you guys. Each of us is irreplaceable, when one of us cant come, the circle is incomplete or imperfect. Love you all. 

The adventures begin on the second day..

We had our lunch in Mahkota Parade..<3

masol is doing his sexy lips again... (*3*)

After some chit chatting in the restaurant, we started our journey. We first visited the most famous landmark of Melaka, that is the A'Famosa fort. Built during the 15th century, what left is only its gate, but still standing and never fails to amuse the crowds and tourists. I touched the walls, stunned with its fine structure and beautiful, beautiful history. If the walls can speak, and the clouds can tell stories, i believe that they have zillions of stories, about the war and human's mistake that leads to war and cause us the lives of thousands. I prayed silently, so that we will never repeat the same mistake again, "God bless Malaysia..." I prayed silently. I went inside the fort, and its like i can see the whole picture again. i can see the Portuguese soldiers, the howling, distant sounds of the battle cry and the war is about to begin... STOP! I distract myself with the beautiful paintings sold inside the fort, and i quickly stepped out from the fort. I dont really like the feelings inside there. So we went up, to the remains of St Paul Church. So many graves along the way makes me feel uncomfortable. 

mopongou family ( cyril, ald and yong blum sampai..=) )

every moments spent with them are irrevocable, and i believe each one of us will treasure the moment, hopefully forever. We laughed, imitating each other, silly responses and tricks, loud voices all through the day, when we started to feel tired, we went back to the hotel, freshen up and wait for our 3 members to come. I mean, this three... 

ald

yong

cyril 

So when they arrived, the family is completed. We went to have our dinner in McDonald, took some pictures and left. As usual, we are the center of attention.. well, what do you expect? There are 14 of us now! 

peace ready2..

It was so tiring after a long day of playing tourist, so we went to the 24 hour shop, bought some foods and drinks, and bring it to the hotel. Im just so tired, i cant barely open my eyelids so i decided to get some sleep. And surprisingly this picture is taken..

panat baaaahhh....

Hahahahahaa.. nevermind!! That night, i slept like a baby. I only remember when Sis Cory covered me with blanket, and the next morning when i woke up, its almost 9. I hate the feeling of going back to hostel. The trip has come to an end. We packed, checked out at 12.30pm and continued our trip to Taming Sari Tower, but because the ticket is too expensive, so we just hang around, took some pictures and left.

Next, we went to a famosa again, this time is for cyril and ald. its a very short trip, because we are heading back to sg buloh at 5pm. We bought some souvenirs, and presents for families in the souvenir shops, there are tons of them in Melaka. Some of us bought t-shirts, bags.. some of us didn't buy anything. That is me. I cant buy anything, because i cant give them to my family. Its a secret trip.. If i told them, for sure i cant even set my foot in Melaka, i want to see the world too. So, i think this can be considered as a 'white lie'.

We had our lunch at the Johnny's, Dataran Pahlawan. Sis and Daryl went to buy a cake for our beloved sister casey. Actually her birthday is on th 18th of november, but nevermind, we can always celebrate in advance right..? The people who dined there watched us, as we sing a Happy Birthday song for Casey. And the food fight begins. No we didn't throw foods, we just feed each other with cakes. That doesn't sound bad doesn't it? haha.. We laughed, laughed, and laughed. Let me tell you one simple fact about us, when we are with each other, we dont care how silly we might look like, or sound like.. because we know the others will be there to back us up, with silly responses as well. So we needn't be afraid of what people may say. Dont you think laughter is the best medicine? We laughed and smiled even for the most tiny reason. I'm comfortable with them. And the most important thing is, I am myself when I'm with them. I can laugh without any valid reason, and i can smile all day even after a long day of work, some people might think that i have something wrong up there, but the mopongouzians dont. They'll laugh with me. I know..=)

happy birthday casey!

After the surprise birthday party, we went to Melaka Sentral, its time to go back now. I slept all the way from Melaka to Seremban. When i woke up, my mp3 is playing the song 'i dont wanna miss a thing'. And the only thing that crosses my mind at the moment is my beloved mopongou circle of friends. Actually this is our last trip together, because Gaman is leaving the college for his one year practical starting next semester. Nelvin, masol, cory, cyril, gibot and wan are graduating next year, while me, san, casey and gono will leave the college for one year practical too in our 5th semester. But whatever happens, happens. I still thank God, for He had given me the most precious circle of friends ever. How could I ask for more? Even if our time together is too short, we'll cherish every seconds of it. So that when each one of us had left the college, the memories will live on. We dont have to find another group of new people and tell them to try and fit into our group. because nobody can be like us, we are too DAMN special.. 

Before i stop here, i would like to dedicate to all of you, this one simple phrase. originally from a song lyric, you guess it yourself. haha

Looks like we've made it, look how far we've come my baby?

We might have took the long way, we knew we'll get there someday

They said, i bet, they'll never make it

but just look at us holding on?

We still together, still going strong.

I love you all, my beloved mopongou family. We'll be seeing each other again next semester, but without Gaman. Nevermind. Gaman, ko praktikal bagus2 k.. love you. Mmmmuuaahhh!!! We'll just have to remember one thing. Side by side or miles apart, friends are forever close to your heart. 

good old streets of Malacca

My best times have gone

From laughter to memories.

My friends have gone

from friends to family..<3

You are just jealous, because we act retarded

and people still loves us. 

And when i grow too old to dream, our love will live in my heart..

i love you, dad.

fact = i dont usually talk to my dad. if i do, then it must be a 'hidup-mati' situation.

daddy? a very foreign word to me. i never had one in my life. i wish i never had. i dont need someone to jerk me off, to yell at me whenever i did wrong. i dont need someone to tell me what to do, just to get yelled at when im not doing it right. i wish he could just dissapear. 'PUFF' just like that and he's gone. away from my life, forever. i dont need a dad, i can do everything on my own.

This is exactly what i have in my mind when im still in my rebellious years. that was like 7 or 6 years ago.

Now im 21, not some 14 years old trying to fit in to some sort of groupies, or what they call as 'a way of life'. If you would ask again now, whats your daddy to you? I would answer,"He's my everything."

I still remember one night, he is drunk and arrived home quite late. He's from KK, that was like 2 hour drive from Ranau. When he opened the door, I glanced at him for about 2 seconds, and continued watching my movie. I didn't know my attitude that night was gonna break his heart. 5 minutes later, i went to the kitchen to get some refreshments form the refrigerator. That is when I heard his little talk with mommy in the kitchen. He asked her, " Whats wrong with Ijet? Or is there something wrong with me? Why cant i get a smile from her face, after a long and tiring day? I dont deserve one? " I didn't feel anything yet. i ignored their conversation, took the drinks from the refrigerator and without even looking at him i walked out from the kitchen.

The most frightening news i received from my family is when my sister called and told me that daddy was in the hospital. "It was a nasty accident, Jet. We dont know whether he'll be alright or what.. " with sobbing voice at the end of the line. I cant feel my legs anymore, i can't even hold my tears from bursting out. At that time, I was in Keningau and I'm in my SPM's year. I sat up the whole night crying, i cried and cried thinking about him.
"What if i'll lose him? What if i'd never get the chance to see him again?"
"Will he be alright? Will my daddy be alright?"
i never prayed so hard, as i prayed for him that night. I prayed that he'll be fine, I prayed that he'll still be smiling there when i'm going back for holidays. I prayed, "Please God, please don't take him away from me." and i repeated that sentence for almost like thousands of time. Praise to God, my daddy made it, he's fully recovered, and as healthy as a horse. Praise to God.

When i first got the offer, to pursue my studies abroad, he didn't show any concern. He keeps quiet, let me do  all the preparations, until the very day, im leaving Sabah, for Selangor. It was 30 June, 2009. He shakes my hand and said, "Sumonong sonong ko hino kio Jit. Barajal no kopio." direct translation "Behave yourself, study hard." that is the only sentence that came out from his mouth. I was quite disappointed at first but nevermind. I was too busy thinking about my new life in a new place. I took a cab to go to the airport, and suddenly my handphone beeps, a new incoming message. I read it and then the next thing I know, I was crying like a baby. My father sent the message. He told me to be brave, face the challenges in life and never backdown. He also told me that this will be the last decision that they took for me. He told me that he is sorry, that i have to go through so much at such a young age and last of all, he told me that he loves me. i burst into tears when i read the last sentence. I replied back, "Thx dad, i love you too."

My mother said, when im away from home, his (daddy) friends would always come over and had a drink with my dad. They would talk about anything, from church activities, to last night soccer game, and finally about me. He told them how proud he is, that i finally found myself a better and promising job in the government. All i needed to hear is that, " I'm proud of my daughter, Ijit. " That was the happiest moment of my life, knowing that somehow, i have made him proud. Thank you dad.

My dad maybe not the soft one, or the joker one. but im very proud to call him as my dad. Sometimes, things just happens, and all i wanted to do is just to put the blame on him, and walk away with clean hands. thats what i would do most of the time. most of the time, we wont even talk to each other, and its awkward for me even to look into his eyes. But what i can tell you, he's my dad and i would do anything to protect him and i'll be there for him when he's old and walks with a cane. I'll always be proud to show him off to my friends and say,"Thats my dad!"

Dad, i love you.

thanx dazz for tagging me!!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?

 what is it? hehe

 
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

guy : when he has a beautiful smile and treats people equally.
girl : when she has a beautiful smile and appreciates people around her
 

 HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
morning : omaigod i got 3 killer papers today!
afternoon : i haven't finish reading topic 6. girls, which topics are excluded in the environmental assessment subject??
evening: FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
night : sleepy - head ( i slept for 4 hours )
current mood : I CANT SLEEP.......

 
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
earn enough money, so i can visit those places that i can only see from the pictures like Paris, or England ( London would be very nice ) or Rome. hehehe.. and also if luck is on my side, i would LOVE to pursue my study abroad the country. but my main purpose is i want let my parents live a better life after this, i'll take care of them.

 
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
i dont have problems with being myself. You have problems with that? fuck you..^^

  
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

I dont know. but sarah and tiqa thinks that im an entertainer. haha

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?

the best parents anybody would dream of. although i dont get along well with my father but, i know he tried to make things better between us again. so i'll just let him try. 

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

first of all, family. second, money. third? my future. Im a dreamer, dont you know that?..(:

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIENDS?

they've been wonderful to me, and i wouldn't ask them to change a thing. i love everything about them. 

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

currently? i dont have anyone. so, im skipping this question.:P

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

its dull, believe me i dont have anything extraordinary about my life. 

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

a dedicated government officer, a good daughter to both of my parents and a successor in everything i do.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

i told you, i dont have any.

  
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

 the 'rebellious' one.

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
of course the first dance would be the slow dance. the song? i haven't think of anything yet. but maybe 'smoke gets in your eyes' or 'i love how you love me' those types of oldies, why? the melody is simply just amazing. 

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
haha.. i dont know. nothing beats the church songs like 'Paradais'. haha

 
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
surfing, blogging, podcasts.. 

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
they're simply wonderful and just the person that i needed. 


WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
like right now? its almost 2am in the morning, i'll probably just 'pass-out' in front of my laptop and wakes up late tomorrow. haha. 

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
surrounded by family, and i'll first ask for their forgiveness if i ever hurt them. with my husband and children holding me, i know that i was blessed and heaven holds for me..:) 

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
i wish i never hurt him terribly like this. 

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
jokes, funny movies. 

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?

 sad movies, even if how hard-heartened i may be, i'll still cry when its time for sad movies.

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?

i dont know.  

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
not to be able to come home and meet my family. i'll always have this phobia where something is going to happen during my journey going back to sabah. i know im being paranoid..^^
 
DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
i dont know, let them keep that to themselves because i dont want to know.
  

 IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE? 
nothing, i suppose. but i dont mean that it has been a smooth ride for me over these few years. i have my up-down but hey, who doesn't?

 WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
i miss my mother., and the thought of waking up at 6am tomorrow for school.

 WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?   
thanx dazz for tagging me!!
  

 BLOGGERS I WANT TO TAG:
tiqa, ashley, daryl, yong

to love again | efyiusik on Xanga

to love again | efyiusik on Xanga

enjoy..^^

Describe what it was like the first time you fell in love.

actually the first time i fell in love is when someone told me he loves me, unconditionally. that was like 8 years ago.. hurm... it was nerve-cracking. i was so happy, and so scared at the same time. why? im afraid of losing him off couse..:)

When you're in love, do you KNOW, or does it take a while to realize it?

it takes a while to realize it, i cant differentiate between love and infatuation. hehe

Love: purely hormonal or something that happens deep within the soul?

its more than hormonal, its something irrevocable, it happens deep within the soul where no one can reach it including you, it happens naturally and you cant stop it, nor even control it.

Do you ever take your love(s) for granted?

i did. i was too busy experimenting the outside world. i thought i've met someone better when i left him, but in the end, what goes around comes around. i believe in karma.

Why do you think some relationships don't work out?

plenty reasons for that. some people are just not meant to be together, sometimes people in our surroundings also gives big impact to our relationships fate, eg parents or friends. but definitely not because the boy loves the girl too much or another way around. when you really loves someone, you dont give up on them. thats a fact, pal.

What criteria do you want to meet before marrying someone?

it would be nice if he loves me, and i love him. love is all that matters.  and off course, someone with permanent job, not some guys that still live with their parents even when they're 30. 

What is your opinion on couples who live together but aren't married?

it really doesn't matter to me, i dont watch over other people's business.

Why do you think divorces happen?

because they forgot why did they get married in the 1st place. they forgot their wedding vows, to be together through thick and thin. they just forgot and they just need a wake up call. im a religious person, for me what God has united, men cannot divide. or else dont get married.

Besides love, what else is important in a long-term relationship?

trust, honesty, and all those good things that makes you cant stop loving each other.

What are things you look for in a potential long-term partner?

honesty, loyalty, loving, caring, everything a girl can ask for.

Are you too picky with partners or too accepting?

im being too picky, i think. but dont you think girl deserves someone who loves her and what most important is she loves him back? if not then whats the rational in accepting that someone to be your partner? 

What are things you will absolutely NOT tolerate in a partner?

i can tolerate with smoker, i can tolerate with a partner who drink occasionally, i can tolerate someone that is lack of romantic gestures.. hehe.. but i cannot tolerate someone who cheats on me. 

To you, what role does sexuality play in a relationship?

the guy should be able to make decision on their relationship. for me, i dont need a pawn, i need a king. 

How do you tell the difference between love, a crush, and obsession?

i dont know, really. im suck at those things, im suck at feelings. 

How important is physical attraction to you in a relationship?

it's important, but not as important as emotional attraction, not forgetting the chemistry, the sparks...

What are some things that attract you to a person, initially?

the way they smiles, their smells, their way of thinking, passion in music is a bonus.

If you and your partner have a fight, how can you both make it better?

talk it out, give and take so that those cracks can be healed in no time. apologizing is not because you're wrong, its because you appreciate the relationship more. 

In a partner: passion or friendship?

passion for each other.

Are you thinking of someone special right now?

nope, i dont. i wish i dont.

What's your favourite thing about them?

im trying so hard not to remember those little details about him. 

Any annoying little habits they have?

yeah, he always listens to me. i know you will think " and that is a bad thing?? " for me, it is. i dont need a pawn, i told you so, right?

Can you forsee a long-term relationship with them? Why or why not?

with him? i use to, now i dont.^^

Do you have any concerns about long-term relationships?

yeah, i dont think i can handle another one. 

Do you fall hard and fast, or are you more hesitant-hearted? 

hesitated-hearted. i dont fall in love easily. told you im too picky, il try to change but not now, k?

Try to define what love means to you.

It's undescribeable. 

Are you hopeful in terms of you finding long-lasting love? Why or why not?

maybe later in life. right now i just want to experiment life, not someone to talk to at night and argue with the next morning. its very childish. 

What are some small gestures you do to show your affection?

hold his hands, and grip 'em slowly while i smile at him.

Is it even possible to say?

no, gestures does better than words.

Why do you think parents forget how to be lovers? How can this be fixed?

because when a relationship went on too long, they rather think that what they have is an obligation, rather than thinking your partner is a gift from God to you. Do remember that everyday, for those who is getting married. when both of you gets too old to dream about each other's love, let the love lives in your heart. then it'll stay there far longer than forever.

Do you believe there is someone out there for everyone?

i think so? idk.

my dream are all shattered upon the ground, and i cant even cry.

i received a very shocking news today, and surprisingly i cant even shed a single tear, its just my heart beats faster everytime i think of her. all i can think of is why? why and WHY? why did she has to be so desperate? why cant she wait, why can't she put her life and destiny onto God's hand? Why did she decided to leave us, and chose him? Why? why oh why if i may ask. If you see this post, you may wonder why is it so heartbreaking for me to watch you let go of our hands, and decided to live your own brand new life, without us inside. well, read this one will you? read this until the very end, this maybe the only chance for me to change your mind, and if you stay with your decision after this, i have to say goodbye to you because its never gonna be the same again after this, no its not the same anymore.
Back when im still a little girl and throughout my school years, you have been my idol since forever. i studied hard just to enter the university, just like you did. i always worked so hard just to be like you. for me, youlike you are an independent woman, a free spirit and has her own way of living her life. when you gave me a few advices about my studies and about boyfriends, i'd listen carefully. Why? Because i want to live up my life based on you, i want to be great just like you did in your life. You have your outstanding career, you have your own money, your own victorious life any girl would die to have. When i walked with you down the streets, i would be so proud, im so proud to have you as my idol, im so proud to have someone like you to teach me about life and everything about girls stuff.
now i ask you, what would you do if one day someone ripped those apart from you, left you with nothing but dark clouds and never ending sorrow? You dont have anyone to hold on to. That was what it feels like, and suddenly everything that you told me, was a lie. you teach me everything about life, and one day you took it back, and im just like a blind person with no stick to hold on to, with nothing to hold on to. how could you? is it true you're leaving us soon? is it true? and what hurts the most is you rather hold his hands and leave, left us with broken hearted, broken down by you. i hope you know what a mess you've done here, and if you really wanted to go, please look at us for the last time, please look at your parents for the last time before you leave us forever. you told me, nothings going to change between us, that you will always be the old you and the bond between us cant be broken but im telling you it already has, its never going to be the same again between us. before this i would be so proud and happy if you can talk to me about life, teach me anything and tell me everything about what you did and your experience in life. but after this, i may never want to look at you again, i may hate you and just by looking at you is enough to make me feel disgusted.
So, if you still want to leave us, its up to you. i'm in no position to tell you what to do, and i have no right to interfere with your life. i know that. im just telling you what my heart wants to say. before i wave goodbye to you, i hope you know that you use to have a very special image in my heart, because you are my idol. now you are one step away from breaking the image and it will be gone, forever. Think about what i've said. please dont leave, please just stay.

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror


day 3 - dear siblings


i miss the three of you, i miss the old us where we can play, laugh and talk for the whole day without any problems like financial crisis, or spouse's problems, study or what-so-fucking-ever problems that may lingers in our mind. i just want to go back to those days, back when we were still little and talk to each other again. We watched the whole world changes in front of us, but the 4 of us stands still, holding hands with each other, come what may. we would fight sometimes over some silly mistake and misunderstood, but whats interesting about us is we quickly forgive each other and forgets about the whole thing in one day. i miss sitting on the porch, where me and my little brother would play the guitar and the other two would just stare at the sky and we start to laugh at each other silly jokes, when mum passed us by she would just roll her eyes, or tell us to slow our voice down but we would always answer her "lack sense of humor!!". then we would laugh hysterically again. gosh i miss the three of you. our sister is getting married soon, i know the three of us still hesitate to let go of her, and we still hesitate to accept a new brother into our life, a perfect stranger. can we still laugh like before? can we still make fun at each other like before? i dont know but dont think that i dont try to accept the fact that she's getting married and the three of us would be left behind. i just hope that things doesn't change so fast, i just hope that we were still kids, where we still have each other and she doesn't have to go. but maybe im just being to paranoid, but you cant blame me because she's the only sister i got. the person where i talk about my feelings the most, the person where i get into fight the most but what important is we grow up together, so its normal for me to not wanna let go of her. but sister, if you're reading these, i hope you know that i love you, so much until i dont want to have to share you with anyone else. im still trying to adapt to this fact, dont worry i'll be okay. 

7 things men will just never understand..:)

saw this one on my favorite website.

1. Why we need so many bottles in the shower. 
Stop making fun of my 3 different kinds of sugar scrub! I can't exactly exfoliate my face with your lonely bottle of Pert Plus. 

2. How it feels when your breasts get heavy and sore during PMS. 
Try walking down the stairs braless during that time of the month - ouch!

3. The extra burden we bear of worrying about an unwanted pregnancy when we have sex. 
We have more to lose than you do, plain and simple.

4. That we can meet a girlfriend for coffee and talk without pause for 3 hours, 
without having to have a planned activity.

5. How skeevy (and sometimes scary) it can be 
when you can feel the eyes of a crowd of men ogling you, especially if you're in a male-dominated place like a billiards club.

6. No, I didn't really NEED another pair of black flats, 
but they were half off, so think of the money I SAVED on them. Duh.

7. We will always struggle with our body confidence, 
even if we look like Gisele, perhaps the same way you will always struggle with sexual temptation. And you know how you think it's hot when a girl wolfs down a burger and fries? You also make fun of "chubby" girls, so, one way or the other, pal!