i received a very shocking news today, and surprisingly i cant even shed a single tear, its just my heart beats faster everytime i think of her. all i can think of is why? why and WHY? why did she has to be so desperate? why cant she wait, why can't she put her life and destiny onto God's hand? Why did she decided to leave us, and chose him? Why? why oh why if i may ask. If you see this post, you may wonder why is it so heartbreaking for me to watch you let go of our hands, and decided to live your own brand new life, without us inside. well, read this one will you? read this until the very end, this maybe the only chance for me to change your mind, and if you stay with your decision after this, i have to say goodbye to you because its never gonna be the same again after this, no its not the same anymore.
Back when im still a little girl and throughout my school years, you have been my idol since forever. i studied hard just to enter the university, just like you did. i always worked so hard just to be like you. for me, youlike you are an independent woman, a free spirit and has her own way of living her life. when you gave me a few advices about my studies and about boyfriends, i'd listen carefully. Why? Because i want to live up my life based on you, i want to be great just like you did in your life. You have your outstanding career, you have your own money, your own victorious life any girl would die to have. When i walked with you down the streets, i would be so proud, im so proud to have you as my idol, im so proud to have someone like you to teach me about life and everything about girls stuff.
now i ask you, what would you do if one day someone ripped those apart from you, left you with nothing but dark clouds and never ending sorrow? You dont have anyone to hold on to. That was what it feels like, and suddenly everything that you told me, was a lie. you teach me everything about life, and one day you took it back, and im just like a blind person with no stick to hold on to, with nothing to hold on to. how could you? is it true you're leaving us soon? is it true? and what hurts the most is you rather hold his hands and leave, left us with broken hearted, broken down by you. i hope you know what a mess you've done here, and if you really wanted to go, please look at us for the last time, please look at your parents for the last time before you leave us forever. you told me, nothings going to change between us, that you will always be the old you and the bond between us cant be broken but im telling you it already has, its never going to be the same again between us. before this i would be so proud and happy if you can talk to me about life, teach me anything and tell me everything about what you did and your experience in life. but after this, i may never want to look at you again, i may hate you and just by looking at you is enough to make me feel disgusted.
So, if you still want to leave us, its up to you. i'm in no position to tell you what to do, and i have no right to interfere with your life. i know that. im just telling you what my heart wants to say. before i wave goodbye to you, i hope you know that you use to have a very special image in my heart, because you are my idol. now you are one step away from breaking the image and it will be gone, forever. Think about what i've said. please dont leave, please just stay.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
day 3 - dear siblings
i miss the three of you, i miss the old us where we can play, laugh and talk for the whole day without any problems like financial crisis, or spouse's problems, study or what-so-fucking-ever problems that may lingers in our mind. i just want to go back to those days, back when we were still little and talk to each other again. We watched the whole world changes in front of us, but the 4 of us stands still, holding hands with each other, come what may. we would fight sometimes over some silly mistake and misunderstood, but whats interesting about us is we quickly forgive each other and forgets about the whole thing in one day. i miss sitting on the porch, where me and my little brother would play the guitar and the other two would just stare at the sky and we start to laugh at each other silly jokes, when mum passed us by she would just roll her eyes, or tell us to slow our voice down but we would always answer her "lack sense of humor!!". then we would laugh hysterically again. gosh i miss the three of you. our sister is getting married soon, i know the three of us still hesitate to let go of her, and we still hesitate to accept a new brother into our life, a perfect stranger. can we still laugh like before? can we still make fun at each other like before? i dont know but dont think that i dont try to accept the fact that she's getting married and the three of us would be left behind. i just hope that things doesn't change so fast, i just hope that we were still kids, where we still have each other and she doesn't have to go. but maybe im just being to paranoid, but you cant blame me because she's the only sister i got. the person where i talk about my feelings the most, the person where i get into fight the most but what important is we grow up together, so its normal for me to not wanna let go of her. but sister, if you're reading these, i hope you know that i love you, so much until i dont want to have to share you with anyone else. im still trying to adapt to this fact, dont worry i'll be okay.
Monday, September 20, 2010
7 things men will just never understand..:)
saw this one on my favorite website.
1. Why we need so many bottles in the shower.
Stop making fun of my 3 different kinds of sugar scrub! I can't exactly exfoliate my face with your lonely bottle of Pert Plus.
2. How it feels when your breasts get heavy and sore during PMS.
Try walking down the stairs braless during that time of the month - ouch!
3. The extra burden we bear of worrying about an unwanted pregnancy when we have sex.
We have more to lose than you do, plain and simple.
4. That we can meet a girlfriend for coffee and talk without pause for 3 hours,
without having to have a planned activity.
5. How skeevy (and sometimes scary) it can be
when you can feel the eyes of a crowd of men ogling you, especially if you're in a male-dominated place like a billiards club.
6. No, I didn't really NEED another pair of black flats,
but they were half off, so think of the money I SAVED on them. Duh.
7. We will always struggle with our body confidence,
even if we look like Gisele, perhaps the same way you will always struggle with sexual temptation. And you know how you think it's hot when a girl wolfs down a burger and fries? You also make fun of "chubby" girls, so, one way or the other, pal!
1. Why we need so many bottles in the shower.
Stop making fun of my 3 different kinds of sugar scrub! I can't exactly exfoliate my face with your lonely bottle of Pert Plus.
2. How it feels when your breasts get heavy and sore during PMS.
Try walking down the stairs braless during that time of the month - ouch!
3. The extra burden we bear of worrying about an unwanted pregnancy when we have sex.
We have more to lose than you do, plain and simple.
4. That we can meet a girlfriend for coffee and talk without pause for 3 hours,
without having to have a planned activity.
5. How skeevy (and sometimes scary) it can be
when you can feel the eyes of a crowd of men ogling you, especially if you're in a male-dominated place like a billiards club.
6. No, I didn't really NEED another pair of black flats,
but they were half off, so think of the money I SAVED on them. Duh.
7. We will always struggle with our body confidence,
even if we look like Gisele, perhaps the same way you will always struggle with sexual temptation. And you know how you think it's hot when a girl wolfs down a burger and fries? You also make fun of "chubby" girls, so, one way or the other, pal!
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
day 3 - dear parents
dear beloved parents, i wish you can see me now, longing to go back home just to see your face. im sorry for always making you worried ma, and im sorry for the distance between us, dad. im sorry to not be able to live up to your expectation, i know both of your hopes for me but i can't make it come true dad, mom. i hope you know how much i want to make you two proud of me,i tried everyday. i followed every words you said, i go to wherever place you want me to go and i read whatever books you told me to read. i'm willing to give my studies, my friends and my ambition up, just to satisfy your heart ma, i did. eventhough sometimes it feels like i might as well be dead when im trying to satisfy and be a perfect daughter for you, i kept it inside, thinking that this feeling might soon go away, so i can pretend that im okay again when im in front of you, that i can do this all over again without the feeling of giving up. but the truth is, i already broke down, many many times before. mom, dad i love both of you. so if i have to live my life based on your fingers pointing which way to go, i'd do it.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
day 2 - dear crush..:)
i dont think i have any crush for the moment. its just an infatuation most of the time. cant really believe a hot blooded woman now can you? hehe..
Saturday, September 18, 2010
it worth the reading..^^
listen, ive never been where you are right now. never. but i know this boy,
and i know how you are feeling, he broke up with you right ?
after telling you he loved you and calling you stupid (but grossly cute) pet names?
like hunnybun and buttercup? yeah, i know he lavished you in compliments
only to put himself down so you would stroke his fakely low ego. did he tell you he would teach you to skateboard?
i bet be promised you a personalized song, did you talk about college,
making plans that you would give anything to work out? did he tell you dream about him?
or maybe he would always mention how he was laying in bed and wishing you were there.
he dragged "i love you" out of you. didnt he? you werent ready and he even said that he would
"drag it out of you sometime" yeah. don't deny it. he would talk to you last thing at night, and first thing in the mornig.
he constantly mentioned losing sleep over you every night,
but we both know he slept like a rock.
he left you insanely sweet picture comments that made you smile everytime you thought about them,
he made you love pictures that were sort of "bleh" before. did you delete those pictures after he broke your heart? yeah me to.
all of yourfriends hate him now dont they? remember how happy they were for you?
and how the agreed with you on how oerfect and great he was? they never warned you.
no they made you push aside your worries. stop. don't blame them. if they had warned you,
we all know you would have never listened. but please listen to this.
i know you dont want to accept this but he played you, just like played me, and just like he played countless other girls before either of us.
im sorry i wasnt around to war you, but i was still bitter. no i never called him mine,
but he promised me so much, and built my hotes up so high, just remmeber, it's okay to cry.
and refering to him as "asshole" is perfectly expected., because trust me,
you'll end up talking about him just as often if not more, then before the breakup. there iwlll be the "one times" and the "i remembers"
and once you think you're over him. watch out. you better keep your eyes close in the hallways.
because i promise you. the next time you see him, he'll be all over some other girl.
a little part of you will want to warn her,
but no body will blame you for hating her an for blaming her for you pain, year you'll compare all guys to him,
because aside from the man-whoreish,
hear-breaker thing, he was perfect. he was everything you ever wanted or maybe you made that p.
maybe the second he started to show interest, you made up this perfect guy in your head, and he just
happened to be just like him. i bet "true love" ran through your mind. but no. im sorry/ but he never loved you.
listen you will find the perfect guy fro you just like everybody says you will, and it will be soon.
okay so i didnt believe it either. but im sotartign to, if not now, then in college, just wait.
untill then you need to get over him. i dont know how, im still working on it, but it's possible. it has to be.
simply because of how many girls this has happened to before. the most important thing is
dont let him know he hurt you. don't let him know he could have youback in a heartbeat.
don't give him that satisfaction/ make him thing you're completely happy.
when he desides to wave at you like nothing ever happened,
wave back. sure, but don't smile. make him think,
he meant as nothing to you, as you obviously meant to him .<3 .
and i know how you are feeling, he broke up with you right ?
after telling you he loved you and calling you stupid (but grossly cute) pet names?
like hunnybun and buttercup? yeah, i know he lavished you in compliments
only to put himself down so you would stroke his fakely low ego. did he tell you he would teach you to skateboard?
i bet be promised you a personalized song, did you talk about college,
making plans that you would give anything to work out? did he tell you dream about him?
or maybe he would always mention how he was laying in bed and wishing you were there.
he dragged "i love you" out of you. didnt he? you werent ready and he even said that he would
"drag it out of you sometime" yeah. don't deny it. he would talk to you last thing at night, and first thing in the mornig.
he constantly mentioned losing sleep over you every night,
but we both know he slept like a rock.
he left you insanely sweet picture comments that made you smile everytime you thought about them,
he made you love pictures that were sort of "bleh" before. did you delete those pictures after he broke your heart? yeah me to.
all of yourfriends hate him now dont they? remember how happy they were for you?
and how the agreed with you on how oerfect and great he was? they never warned you.
no they made you push aside your worries. stop. don't blame them. if they had warned you,
we all know you would have never listened. but please listen to this.
i know you dont want to accept this but he played you, just like played me, and just like he played countless other girls before either of us.
im sorry i wasnt around to war you, but i was still bitter. no i never called him mine,
but he promised me so much, and built my hotes up so high, just remmeber, it's okay to cry.
and refering to him as "asshole" is perfectly expected., because trust me,
you'll end up talking about him just as often if not more, then before the breakup. there iwlll be the "one times" and the "i remembers"
and once you think you're over him. watch out. you better keep your eyes close in the hallways.
because i promise you. the next time you see him, he'll be all over some other girl.
a little part of you will want to warn her,
but no body will blame you for hating her an for blaming her for you pain, year you'll compare all guys to him,
because aside from the man-whoreish,
hear-breaker thing, he was perfect. he was everything you ever wanted or maybe you made that p.
maybe the second he started to show interest, you made up this perfect guy in your head, and he just
happened to be just like him. i bet "true love" ran through your mind. but no. im sorry/ but he never loved you.
listen you will find the perfect guy fro you just like everybody says you will, and it will be soon.
okay so i didnt believe it either. but im sotartign to, if not now, then in college, just wait.
untill then you need to get over him. i dont know how, im still working on it, but it's possible. it has to be.
simply because of how many girls this has happened to before. the most important thing is
dont let him know he hurt you. don't let him know he could have youback in a heartbeat.
don't give him that satisfaction/ make him thing you're completely happy.
when he desides to wave at you like nothing ever happened,
wave back. sure, but don't smile. make him think,
he meant as nothing to you, as you obviously meant to him .<3 .
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
best friend hang tough, they dont come with fragile stickers. keep away from those who stabs your back when you least expect it but never forget to forgive eventhough u'r not ready to talk to them yet. dear friends, thank you for being so wonderful to me, and i wish im an octopus so that i can hug 8 people at once. i'll be the sun to shine you when you are in your bright times, and for sure im willing to be your moon when you are in your darkest time. i'll stay beside you even when you dont feel like you want to talk, and i'll laugh at your jokes even when its not funny at all. i'll lend you my lunch money even if i have to starve for the whole day. i'll pick you up when you're fallen and i'll listen to every little thing you said because it would mean the world to me. love you always, your friend Bridget..<3
shila and sara casey, san
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
day 1 : dear best friend..:)
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| shila, sara, alvin, baz, sha (took pic) |
shila and sara casey, san
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| mopongou team |
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