i received a very shocking news today, and surprisingly i cant even shed a single tear, its just my heart beats faster everytime i think of her. all i can think of is why? why and WHY? why did she has to be so desperate? why cant she wait, why can't she put her life and destiny onto God's hand? Why did she decided to leave us, and chose him? Why? why oh why if i may ask. If you see this post, you may wonder why is it so heartbreaking for me to watch you let go of our hands, and decided to live your own brand new life, without us inside. well, read this one will you? read this until the very end, this maybe the only chance for me to change your mind, and if you stay with your decision after this, i have to say goodbye to you because its never gonna be the same again after this, no its not the same anymore.
Back when im still a little girl and throughout my school years, you have been my idol since forever. i studied hard just to enter the university, just like you did. i always worked so hard just to be like you. for me, youlike you are an independent woman, a free spirit and has her own way of living her life. when you gave me a few advices about my studies and about boyfriends, i'd listen carefully. Why? Because i want to live up my life based on you, i want to be great just like you did in your life. You have your outstanding career, you have your own money, your own victorious life any girl would die to have. When i walked with you down the streets, i would be so proud, im so proud to have you as my idol, im so proud to have someone like you to teach me about life and everything about girls stuff.
now i ask you, what would you do if one day someone ripped those apart from you, left you with nothing but dark clouds and never ending sorrow? You dont have anyone to hold on to. That was what it feels like, and suddenly everything that you told me, was a lie. you teach me everything about life, and one day you took it back, and im just like a blind person with no stick to hold on to, with nothing to hold on to. how could you? is it true you're leaving us soon? is it true? and what hurts the most is you rather hold his hands and leave, left us with broken hearted, broken down by you. i hope you know what a mess you've done here, and if you really wanted to go, please look at us for the last time, please look at your parents for the last time before you leave us forever. you told me, nothings going to change between us, that you will always be the old you and the bond between us cant be broken but im telling you it already has, its never going to be the same again between us. before this i would be so proud and happy if you can talk to me about life, teach me anything and tell me everything about what you did and your experience in life. but after this, i may never want to look at you again, i may hate you and just by looking at you is enough to make me feel disgusted.
So, if you still want to leave us, its up to you. i'm in no position to tell you what to do, and i have no right to interfere with your life. i know that. im just telling you what my heart wants to say. before i wave goodbye to you, i hope you know that you use to have a very special image in my heart, because you are my idol. now you are one step away from breaking the image and it will be gone, forever. Think about what i've said. please dont leave, please just stay.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
day 3 - dear siblings
i miss the three of you, i miss the old us where we can play, laugh and talk for the whole day without any problems like financial crisis, or spouse's problems, study or what-so-fucking-ever problems that may lingers in our mind. i just want to go back to those days, back when we were still little and talk to each other again. We watched the whole world changes in front of us, but the 4 of us stands still, holding hands with each other, come what may. we would fight sometimes over some silly mistake and misunderstood, but whats interesting about us is we quickly forgive each other and forgets about the whole thing in one day. i miss sitting on the porch, where me and my little brother would play the guitar and the other two would just stare at the sky and we start to laugh at each other silly jokes, when mum passed us by she would just roll her eyes, or tell us to slow our voice down but we would always answer her "lack sense of humor!!". then we would laugh hysterically again. gosh i miss the three of you. our sister is getting married soon, i know the three of us still hesitate to let go of her, and we still hesitate to accept a new brother into our life, a perfect stranger. can we still laugh like before? can we still make fun at each other like before? i dont know but dont think that i dont try to accept the fact that she's getting married and the three of us would be left behind. i just hope that things doesn't change so fast, i just hope that we were still kids, where we still have each other and she doesn't have to go. but maybe im just being to paranoid, but you cant blame me because she's the only sister i got. the person where i talk about my feelings the most, the person where i get into fight the most but what important is we grow up together, so its normal for me to not wanna let go of her. but sister, if you're reading these, i hope you know that i love you, so much until i dont want to have to share you with anyone else. im still trying to adapt to this fact, dont worry i'll be okay.
Monday, September 20, 2010
7 things men will just never understand..:)
saw this one on my favorite website.
1. Why we need so many bottles in the shower.
Stop making fun of my 3 different kinds of sugar scrub! I can't exactly exfoliate my face with your lonely bottle of Pert Plus.
2. How it feels when your breasts get heavy and sore during PMS.
Try walking down the stairs braless during that time of the month - ouch!
3. The extra burden we bear of worrying about an unwanted pregnancy when we have sex.
We have more to lose than you do, plain and simple.
4. That we can meet a girlfriend for coffee and talk without pause for 3 hours,
without having to have a planned activity.
5. How skeevy (and sometimes scary) it can be
when you can feel the eyes of a crowd of men ogling you, especially if you're in a male-dominated place like a billiards club.
6. No, I didn't really NEED another pair of black flats,
but they were half off, so think of the money I SAVED on them. Duh.
7. We will always struggle with our body confidence,
even if we look like Gisele, perhaps the same way you will always struggle with sexual temptation. And you know how you think it's hot when a girl wolfs down a burger and fries? You also make fun of "chubby" girls, so, one way or the other, pal!
1. Why we need so many bottles in the shower.
Stop making fun of my 3 different kinds of sugar scrub! I can't exactly exfoliate my face with your lonely bottle of Pert Plus.
2. How it feels when your breasts get heavy and sore during PMS.
Try walking down the stairs braless during that time of the month - ouch!
3. The extra burden we bear of worrying about an unwanted pregnancy when we have sex.
We have more to lose than you do, plain and simple.
4. That we can meet a girlfriend for coffee and talk without pause for 3 hours,
without having to have a planned activity.
5. How skeevy (and sometimes scary) it can be
when you can feel the eyes of a crowd of men ogling you, especially if you're in a male-dominated place like a billiards club.
6. No, I didn't really NEED another pair of black flats,
but they were half off, so think of the money I SAVED on them. Duh.
7. We will always struggle with our body confidence,
even if we look like Gisele, perhaps the same way you will always struggle with sexual temptation. And you know how you think it's hot when a girl wolfs down a burger and fries? You also make fun of "chubby" girls, so, one way or the other, pal!
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
day 3 - dear parents
dear beloved parents, i wish you can see me now, longing to go back home just to see your face. im sorry for always making you worried ma, and im sorry for the distance between us, dad. im sorry to not be able to live up to your expectation, i know both of your hopes for me but i can't make it come true dad, mom. i hope you know how much i want to make you two proud of me,i tried everyday. i followed every words you said, i go to wherever place you want me to go and i read whatever books you told me to read. i'm willing to give my studies, my friends and my ambition up, just to satisfy your heart ma, i did. eventhough sometimes it feels like i might as well be dead when im trying to satisfy and be a perfect daughter for you, i kept it inside, thinking that this feeling might soon go away, so i can pretend that im okay again when im in front of you, that i can do this all over again without the feeling of giving up. but the truth is, i already broke down, many many times before. mom, dad i love both of you. so if i have to live my life based on your fingers pointing which way to go, i'd do it.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
day 2 - dear crush..:)
i dont think i have any crush for the moment. its just an infatuation most of the time. cant really believe a hot blooded woman now can you? hehe..
Saturday, September 18, 2010
it worth the reading..^^
listen, ive never been where you are right now. never. but i know this boy,
and i know how you are feeling, he broke up with you right ?
after telling you he loved you and calling you stupid (but grossly cute) pet names?
like hunnybun and buttercup? yeah, i know he lavished you in compliments
only to put himself down so you would stroke his fakely low ego. did he tell you he would teach you to skateboard?
i bet be promised you a personalized song, did you talk about college,
making plans that you would give anything to work out? did he tell you dream about him?
or maybe he would always mention how he was laying in bed and wishing you were there.
he dragged "i love you" out of you. didnt he? you werent ready and he even said that he would
"drag it out of you sometime" yeah. don't deny it. he would talk to you last thing at night, and first thing in the mornig.
he constantly mentioned losing sleep over you every night,
but we both know he slept like a rock.
he left you insanely sweet picture comments that made you smile everytime you thought about them,
he made you love pictures that were sort of "bleh" before. did you delete those pictures after he broke your heart? yeah me to.
all of yourfriends hate him now dont they? remember how happy they were for you?
and how the agreed with you on how oerfect and great he was? they never warned you.
no they made you push aside your worries. stop. don't blame them. if they had warned you,
we all know you would have never listened. but please listen to this.
i know you dont want to accept this but he played you, just like played me, and just like he played countless other girls before either of us.
im sorry i wasnt around to war you, but i was still bitter. no i never called him mine,
but he promised me so much, and built my hotes up so high, just remmeber, it's okay to cry.
and refering to him as "asshole" is perfectly expected., because trust me,
you'll end up talking about him just as often if not more, then before the breakup. there iwlll be the "one times" and the "i remembers"
and once you think you're over him. watch out. you better keep your eyes close in the hallways.
because i promise you. the next time you see him, he'll be all over some other girl.
a little part of you will want to warn her,
but no body will blame you for hating her an for blaming her for you pain, year you'll compare all guys to him,
because aside from the man-whoreish,
hear-breaker thing, he was perfect. he was everything you ever wanted or maybe you made that p.
maybe the second he started to show interest, you made up this perfect guy in your head, and he just
happened to be just like him. i bet "true love" ran through your mind. but no. im sorry/ but he never loved you.
listen you will find the perfect guy fro you just like everybody says you will, and it will be soon.
okay so i didnt believe it either. but im sotartign to, if not now, then in college, just wait.
untill then you need to get over him. i dont know how, im still working on it, but it's possible. it has to be.
simply because of how many girls this has happened to before. the most important thing is
dont let him know he hurt you. don't let him know he could have youback in a heartbeat.
don't give him that satisfaction/ make him thing you're completely happy.
when he desides to wave at you like nothing ever happened,
wave back. sure, but don't smile. make him think,
he meant as nothing to you, as you obviously meant to him .<3 .
and i know how you are feeling, he broke up with you right ?
after telling you he loved you and calling you stupid (but grossly cute) pet names?
like hunnybun and buttercup? yeah, i know he lavished you in compliments
only to put himself down so you would stroke his fakely low ego. did he tell you he would teach you to skateboard?
i bet be promised you a personalized song, did you talk about college,
making plans that you would give anything to work out? did he tell you dream about him?
or maybe he would always mention how he was laying in bed and wishing you were there.
he dragged "i love you" out of you. didnt he? you werent ready and he even said that he would
"drag it out of you sometime" yeah. don't deny it. he would talk to you last thing at night, and first thing in the mornig.
he constantly mentioned losing sleep over you every night,
but we both know he slept like a rock.
he left you insanely sweet picture comments that made you smile everytime you thought about them,
he made you love pictures that were sort of "bleh" before. did you delete those pictures after he broke your heart? yeah me to.
all of yourfriends hate him now dont they? remember how happy they were for you?
and how the agreed with you on how oerfect and great he was? they never warned you.
no they made you push aside your worries. stop. don't blame them. if they had warned you,
we all know you would have never listened. but please listen to this.
i know you dont want to accept this but he played you, just like played me, and just like he played countless other girls before either of us.
im sorry i wasnt around to war you, but i was still bitter. no i never called him mine,
but he promised me so much, and built my hotes up so high, just remmeber, it's okay to cry.
and refering to him as "asshole" is perfectly expected., because trust me,
you'll end up talking about him just as often if not more, then before the breakup. there iwlll be the "one times" and the "i remembers"
and once you think you're over him. watch out. you better keep your eyes close in the hallways.
because i promise you. the next time you see him, he'll be all over some other girl.
a little part of you will want to warn her,
but no body will blame you for hating her an for blaming her for you pain, year you'll compare all guys to him,
because aside from the man-whoreish,
hear-breaker thing, he was perfect. he was everything you ever wanted or maybe you made that p.
maybe the second he started to show interest, you made up this perfect guy in your head, and he just
happened to be just like him. i bet "true love" ran through your mind. but no. im sorry/ but he never loved you.
listen you will find the perfect guy fro you just like everybody says you will, and it will be soon.
okay so i didnt believe it either. but im sotartign to, if not now, then in college, just wait.
untill then you need to get over him. i dont know how, im still working on it, but it's possible. it has to be.
simply because of how many girls this has happened to before. the most important thing is
dont let him know he hurt you. don't let him know he could have youback in a heartbeat.
don't give him that satisfaction/ make him thing you're completely happy.
when he desides to wave at you like nothing ever happened,
wave back. sure, but don't smile. make him think,
he meant as nothing to you, as you obviously meant to him .<3 .
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
best friend hang tough, they dont come with fragile stickers. keep away from those who stabs your back when you least expect it but never forget to forgive eventhough u'r not ready to talk to them yet. dear friends, thank you for being so wonderful to me, and i wish im an octopus so that i can hug 8 people at once. i'll be the sun to shine you when you are in your bright times, and for sure im willing to be your moon when you are in your darkest time. i'll stay beside you even when you dont feel like you want to talk, and i'll laugh at your jokes even when its not funny at all. i'll lend you my lunch money even if i have to starve for the whole day. i'll pick you up when you're fallen and i'll listen to every little thing you said because it would mean the world to me. love you always, your friend Bridget..<3
shila and sara casey, san
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
day 1 : dear best friend..:)
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| shila, sara, alvin, baz, sha (took pic) |
shila and sara casey, san
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| mopongou team |
Friday, September 17, 2010
im plain bored..~
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| boredom.. |
1. Who are they?: Ed
2. How long did you date for?: 6 years. give and take a few months.
3. Who dumped who?: i screwed up.
3. Who dumped who?: i screwed up.
4. Do you still find them attractive?: never seen him again
5. Do you still talk?: nope
6. What day did you start dating?: december 19, 2002
7. Do you have anything from this person (ex. their jacket, a gift they gave you)?: wau.. let me see.. hurm.. his jacket, his shirt.. there's too many of them, i cant recall.
8. How old are they now? How old were they when you were dating?:i think he's somewhat 25..
9. Do you remember their birthday?: august 8.
10. What color hair do they have naturally?: black.
Two: pick one of your teachers.
1. Who are they?: Miss Pat
2. What subject do they teach?: biology
3. Are they your favorite teacher? Why?: yes, although she might seem like a bit cranky but once you get to know her, she's a wonderful women and very inspiring.
4. Do you guys talk outside of school?: yeah.
5. Would you ever consider teaching the same subject they do?: i once have. but now, no i dont think so..
6. What color eyes do they have?: I don't look at her that much
7. Do they give a lot of homework?: just our required projects, lab report, field reports..
8. What kind of grades did you get in their class?: gooood, somehow..:)
9. Do they have any kids that go to your school?: no.. she's not married yet.
10. Do you know their first name?: Patricia
Three: pick one of your co-workers.
1. Who are they?:
2. What's their job?:
3. How old are they?:
4. Do you ever goof off with this person at work?:
5. How long have they worked there?:
6. Do you talk outside of work?:
7. Do you think they're attractive?:
8. Did you know each other before you were co-workers?:
9. What three words can describe them?:
10. Do you have any mutual friends? Who?:
Four: pick a family member.
1. Who are they?: Sister
2. What's their relation to you?: Hmm. My sister!??
5. Do you still talk?: nope
6. What day did you start dating?: december 19, 2002
7. Do you have anything from this person (ex. their jacket, a gift they gave you)?: wau.. let me see.. hurm.. his jacket, his shirt.. there's too many of them, i cant recall.
8. How old are they now? How old were they when you were dating?:i think he's somewhat 25..
9. Do you remember their birthday?: august 8.
10. What color hair do they have naturally?: black.
Two: pick one of your teachers.
1. Who are they?: Miss Pat
2. What subject do they teach?: biology
3. Are they your favorite teacher? Why?: yes, although she might seem like a bit cranky but once you get to know her, she's a wonderful women and very inspiring.
4. Do you guys talk outside of school?: yeah.
5. Would you ever consider teaching the same subject they do?: i once have. but now, no i dont think so..
6. What color eyes do they have?: I don't look at her that much
7. Do they give a lot of homework?: just our required projects, lab report, field reports..
8. What kind of grades did you get in their class?: gooood, somehow..:)
9. Do they have any kids that go to your school?: no.. she's not married yet.
10. Do you know their first name?: Patricia
1. Who are they?:
2. What's their job?:
3. How old are they?:
4. Do you ever goof off with this person at work?:
5. How long have they worked there?:
6. Do you talk outside of work?:
7. Do you think they're attractive?:
8. Did you know each other before you were co-workers?:
9. What three words can describe them?:
10. Do you have any mutual friends? Who?:
Four: pick a family member.
1. Who are they?: Sister
2. What's their relation to you?: Hmm. My sister!??
3. How often do you see them?: when i get back home during semester breaks
4. Do you share a last name?: Obviously.
5. Do you talk to them a lot?: i talk to her almost about everything.
6. Are they close to your age?: yeah. im 21 and she's 23
7. What kind of car do they drive?: kancil for the moment
8. Where do they live?: beluran
9. Who's older, them or you?: Her obviously.
10. What's their middle name?: carolina
Five: pick a celebrity.
1. Who are they?: all american reject
2. How are they famous?: idk
3. Describe their appearance.: totally hot.
4. Who are they married to/dating?: i dont wanna know
5. Do they do a good job at what they do (ex. if they're a singer, do they sing well)?: their music genre are compatible to my taste.
6. How old were they when they became famous, do you know?:Hmm. noo
7. Where are they from?: uk, i think.
8. What languages do they speak?: English . . maybe more?
9. Do you find them attractive?: Yes.
10. When's their birthday?: I dont know :(
Six: pick one of your close friends.
1. Who are they?: sarah & tiqa
2. What color eyes do they have?: naturally brown, both of them. but sara loves to wear contacts so i dont get to see her real eye color often. hehe..
3. Have you ever been to their house?: tqa, yes. sara, not yet.
4. Do their parents like you?: I hope so.
5. Who are they dating?: tqa is miss independent, while sara got julsun..:)
6. Do they wear glasses, contacts, or neither?: sara, yeah.
7. How far do they live from you?: Too far
8. Do they have any body mods?: ??
9. How long have you been friends?: Since im in uitm.
10. Where do you usually see each other?: In my hometown, sabah.
Seven: pick one of your enemies.
1. What's their initials?:
2. How long have you been enemies?:
3. What did they do to you, anyway?:
4. How often do you see them?:
5. Do they still bother you?:
6. What color hair do they have?:
7. What grade are they in?:
8. Do they live in your town?:
9. What song reminds you of them?:
10. How tall are they?:
Eight: pick one of your classmates.
1. Who are they?: casey
2. What class do you have together?: all.
3. Is that the only reason you talk?: No. she's one of my besties..
4. Who gets the better grades?: she does, obviously.. but most of the time we r equal.
5. What's their dress style like?: Lovely.
6. How do they style their hair?: straight, black locks.
7. Do they like the class?: idk.
8. Have you had any classes together before?: Nope.
9. Who do they talk to in the class besides you?: san and many others..
10. What's an inside joke between you two?: our very own 'high 5'
Nine: pick one of your siblings.
1. Who are they?:
2. What's the age difference between you two?:
3. Do they look more like their mom or dad?:
4. Do they look anything like you?:
5. Would you switch names with them?:
6. What's their middle name?:
7. Are they full siblings, step siblings, or half siblings?:
8. Do you listen to the same music?:
9. Are you best friends?:
10. Do you have the same color eyes?:
Ten: pick someone you find attractive.
1. What's their initials?: U
2. Have you ever kissed them?: nope
3. Do you have a chance with this person?: yeah, but i screwed it up.
4. Do you even want to date them?: Obviously.
5. How do you know them?: since forever, i think.
6. Do you have a crush on them?: Maybe.. more.
7. Where do they work?: he's a student just like me.
8. How old are they?: 21.
9. Do they go to your school?: Nope.
10. What color eyes do they have?: brown, i think so.
4. Do you share a last name?: Obviously.
5. Do you talk to them a lot?: i talk to her almost about everything.
6. Are they close to your age?: yeah. im 21 and she's 23
7. What kind of car do they drive?: kancil for the moment
8. Where do they live?: beluran
9. Who's older, them or you?: Her obviously.
10. What's their middle name?: carolina
Five: pick a celebrity.
1. Who are they?: all american reject
2. How are they famous?: idk
3. Describe their appearance.: totally hot.
4. Who are they married to/dating?: i dont wanna know
5. Do they do a good job at what they do (ex. if they're a singer, do they sing well)?: their music genre are compatible to my taste.
6. How old were they when they became famous, do you know?:Hmm. noo
7. Where are they from?: uk, i think.
8. What languages do they speak?: English . . maybe more?
9. Do you find them attractive?: Yes.
10. When's their birthday?: I dont know :(
Six: pick one of your close friends.
1. Who are they?: sarah & tiqa
2. What color eyes do they have?: naturally brown, both of them. but sara loves to wear contacts so i dont get to see her real eye color often. hehe..
3. Have you ever been to their house?: tqa, yes. sara, not yet.
4. Do their parents like you?: I hope so.
5. Who are they dating?: tqa is miss independent, while sara got julsun..:)
6. Do they wear glasses, contacts, or neither?: sara, yeah.
7. How far do they live from you?: Too far
8. Do they have any body mods?: ??
9. How long have you been friends?: Since im in uitm.
10. Where do you usually see each other?: In my hometown, sabah.
1. What's their initials?:
2. How long have you been enemies?:
3. What did they do to you, anyway?:
4. How often do you see them?:
5. Do they still bother you?:
6. What color hair do they have?:
7. What grade are they in?:
8. Do they live in your town?:
9. What song reminds you of them?:
10. How tall are they?:
Eight: pick one of your classmates.
1. Who are they?: casey
2. What class do you have together?: all.
3. Is that the only reason you talk?: No. she's one of my besties..
4. Who gets the better grades?: she does, obviously.. but most of the time we r equal.
5. What's their dress style like?: Lovely.
6. How do they style their hair?: straight, black locks.
7. Do they like the class?: idk.
8. Have you had any classes together before?: Nope.
9. Who do they talk to in the class besides you?: san and many others..
10. What's an inside joke between you two?: our very own 'high 5'
1. Who are they?:
2. What's the age difference between you two?:
3. Do they look more like their mom or dad?:
4. Do they look anything like you?:
5. Would you switch names with them?:
6. What's their middle name?:
7. Are they full siblings, step siblings, or half siblings?:
8. Do you listen to the same music?:
9. Are you best friends?:
10. Do you have the same color eyes?:
Ten: pick someone you find attractive.
1. What's their initials?: U
2. Have you ever kissed them?: nope
3. Do you have a chance with this person?: yeah, but i screwed it up.
4. Do you even want to date them?: Obviously.
5. How do you know them?: since forever, i think.
6. Do you have a crush on them?: Maybe.. more.
7. Where do they work?: he's a student just like me.
8. How old are they?: 21.
9. Do they go to your school?: Nope.
10. What color eyes do they have?: brown, i think so.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
here's for you, mother.
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| beloved mother, Ms Olivia Aloysius |
When i decided to move to other town to pursue my studies, you cried trying to make me stay and change my mind. I didn't listen to you. I followed my friend rather than listen to what do you have to say about living without parents in such a young age. Even if i listen, i would never believe in you. I haven't told you that i regretted doing so, i wished that i stayed back and listen to you. after 1 week i cried while im talking to you on the phone. i told you i was scared, i was terrified by the new surrounding and i want to go home. i know ur crying too mother, but you told me there's nothing to be worried about, nothing to be scared about and now there's no other way than to move forward. So i stayed for the whole 2 year in Keningau. Every year you would come to my school, just to watch me receive prizes and tokens of appreciations from the school. i did well in my high school year mom, and i know its all because im in ur prayer all the time.
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| my family |
Everytime i have to go and pursue my study in other places, she will always send me to the terminal, wait for me to catch my taxi, and she'll wait until im completely vanished from her eyes. Whenever im going back to KL, she will send me to the terminal, and would remind me of everything. From "dont forget to call me when you arrived" until "bye sayang, take care." i noticed her watery eyes whenever im leaving her. i didnt cry in front of her, i'll cry when she's out of my sight. i dont want to get too emotional, or else she will be like crying for the whole day. everytime i'm going back to Sabah, the first person i expect to see is her, with her big smile and her favourite line, "smpai suda ko jit?". gosh i miss her so much.. i just cant imagine when someday God take her away from us, maybe i'll go crazy. i just wish that when that day come, i would be strong enough to let her go.
Today is your birthday mom, i wish you all the happiness and please be patient for a while, i'll give you the luxury and everything i can afford when i start to work 2 years from now. im sorry for not being there this year, but i hope you know how much oboy and me missed you. i think about going home everyday. we love you, mom. Happy 49th birthday, may almighty God bless you with happiness and joyous life. Love you!
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| boy n jet : miss you mamy...:) |
Saturday, September 11, 2010
osonong sodopon..
kopisanangan tomod kumaa toinsanan tulun hiti blogspot ku. amu oku poh nokoumbal monulis id boros tokou, baino no kumoinsan. nung ki haro sala om silap, ompuno oku no dikoyu ngawi, yoku 'tanak baru blajar', tudukai oku no hinonggo salah ku, sama2 minsingilo boros tokou sondiri koni..:)? atukoi mirolot malayu ti dusun ku, siou no kopio. hehe..
Siou, au oku kaanu kopio mimboros do dusun, obuli id tararat la. mogolisun po tulu ku momusorou onu kopio boroson ku hiti blog ku, om orosian oku tomod nung haro sala dot boros dusun ku hiti, maan nopo lah kio. irak irakan tulun ti blog ku nga ingga ku tomod, koilo ie somonu ri. hehe..
Tama om tapa ku nopo 100% tulun dusun, nga au yolo mimboros dusun hilo walai, bahasa melayu tomod. Sikul do cina ie sinikulan ku di gulu poh, omoluan oku no mangaku do, obuli2 negi yoku mimboros cina toi ko dusun. omoluan oku no tomod. nokuro? sabap nga au oku pinoubas diolo urg tua ku mimboros do dusun mantad ie tanak oku po. Soira korongou oku tambalut toi ko topinai ku oturompus kopio mimboros do dusun nga, otukono oku no diolo. ahansan oku no da kiharo peluang blajar ti bahasa tokou sondiri.
Iso po kakaus ginawo ku nga, haro kopio jenis tulun d soira korongou haro sala ti boros dusun ku, okon nogi monuduk toi ko mimboros tosonong - sonong 'ugow, okon ko tugud ne mimboros.. ugu d ti bogia....", tu mirak nogi, sundung po ogumu tulun.. tokou nopo tulun do dusun, sama-sama minsingilo, sama-sama monuduk bahasa tokou, tungkus tokou sondiri. Kada papakaus ginawo tulun, au ih kasala mingumbal mimboros tomod bahasa tokou, asampin toi ko awu, 'master' toi ko awu, au kopio osonong kowoyo-woyoon dokoyu tugud no mingirak soira kasala tulun suwai mimboros. 'at least i'm willing to learn' ka d boros urg putih.
bah, aiso no d kanto boroson ku t. palan2 dokoyu mambasa. hehe.. kada kokuai onu nopo boroson ku hiti, siou nopo lah.
kopisanangan tomod kumaa toinsanan tulun hiti blogspot ku. amu oku poh nokoumbal monulis id boros tokou, baino no kumoinsan. nung ki haro sala om silap, ompuno oku no dikoyu ngawi, yoku 'tanak baru blajar', tudukai oku no hinonggo salah ku, sama2 minsingilo boros tokou sondiri koni..:)? atukoi mirolot malayu ti dusun ku, siou no kopio. hehe..
Siou, au oku kaanu kopio mimboros do dusun, obuli id tararat la. mogolisun po tulu ku momusorou onu kopio boroson ku hiti blog ku, om orosian oku tomod nung haro sala dot boros dusun ku hiti, maan nopo lah kio. irak irakan tulun ti blog ku nga ingga ku tomod, koilo ie somonu ri. hehe..
Tama om tapa ku nopo 100% tulun dusun, nga au yolo mimboros dusun hilo walai, bahasa melayu tomod. Sikul do cina ie sinikulan ku di gulu poh, omoluan oku no mangaku do, obuli2 negi yoku mimboros cina toi ko dusun. omoluan oku no tomod. nokuro? sabap nga au oku pinoubas diolo urg tua ku mimboros do dusun mantad ie tanak oku po. Soira korongou oku tambalut toi ko topinai ku oturompus kopio mimboros do dusun nga, otukono oku no diolo. ahansan oku no da kiharo peluang blajar ti bahasa tokou sondiri.
Iso po kakaus ginawo ku nga, haro kopio jenis tulun d soira korongou haro sala ti boros dusun ku, okon nogi monuduk toi ko mimboros tosonong - sonong 'ugow, okon ko tugud ne mimboros.. ugu d ti bogia....", tu mirak nogi, sundung po ogumu tulun.. tokou nopo tulun do dusun, sama-sama minsingilo, sama-sama monuduk bahasa tokou, tungkus tokou sondiri. Kada papakaus ginawo tulun, au ih kasala mingumbal mimboros tomod bahasa tokou, asampin toi ko awu, 'master' toi ko awu, au kopio osonong kowoyo-woyoon dokoyu tugud no mingirak soira kasala tulun suwai mimboros. 'at least i'm willing to learn' ka d boros urg putih.
bah, aiso no d kanto boroson ku t. palan2 dokoyu mambasa. hehe.. kada kokuai onu nopo boroson ku hiti, siou nopo lah.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
got this from my favorite blog.
1. Ucap terima kasih & letakkan link orang yang memberi award ini.
since there's nobody would give me this award, so i decided to steal it from other people's blog. genius eh? hehe
2. Nyatakan 7 perkara tentang diri anda.
i. you see, i can be very forgetful and slow sometimes. example? okay, when my friends are talking about funny stuffs, and they started laughing but i didn't. why? because i'm a slow pick. i'll go like,"hehe...(with confused face )" and one of my friend would explain to me again what actually happen, then i'll laugh. ALONE. come on guys, i'm a slow learner.. have mercy.. and i'm not good at remembering events, such as birthdays. i cant remember my friend's birthdays. Luckily I can see who's having their birthday through Facebook reminder, then i'll just post 'Happy Birthday' to my friend's wall. Easy huh?
ii. i am very easily distracted. When there's a group of people start to ask so many question, i'll go blur and silent for 5 sec i guess... i don't need a group of people to make me go dizzy, 3 people is enough. i'll be like,"erm.. girls.. can you repeat the first question please?" while im holding my forehead. that is the tell-tale sign i'm confused with which question to answer first. this happens a lot when i'm managing a group of choir last month. They are chaotic, fully energized, hyperactive group of choir and i have to put up with their attitude, alone. But of course, i love each and everyone of them. When they started to ask me zillions of questions, i'll simply answer,"guys, come one. start practicing and i'll answer your questions later k?" because i cant answer them right away. does this makes me a weirdo-slow paced person? I think so..
iii. i really really REALLY don't like to eat weird food. I'll give you a few examples:
1. 'green mee goreng' ( i saw this one at Johnny's )
2. 'keropok bayam' (this food is all over my hometown Ranau, i just can't imagine how on earth can someone eat this stuff. i mean, they just dipped the bayam leaves with flour, and deep fry it just like that. people said its crunchy. me? no! i dont even want to taste it.
3. raw fishcake from the market is originally square, right? why would anybody want to cut it to triangle pieces, and cook it with tomate ketchup? its big, and the cutting is not proper. i dont eat fishcake that is cut into triangle pieces. its plain weird. ( i know you will laugh about this one, but i dont care)
well.. that is all inside my list for right now. if i added more, i'll let you know..:)
iv. i don't like new environment. i moved a lot since i'm 16. not house, but school. At 16, i went to Keningau to pursue my study at Technic school there. at 18 i went to national service for 3 months at K.Belud, then i went to Labuan for Matriculation programme, 1 week after i left colleger because i got my uni offering letter and im off to K.Kinabalu. then 2 years after i left because i passed the S.P.A interview and here I am at Selangor. what im trying to say is, everytime i arrived at a new place, it will take me about 2 or 1 month to settle down, get to know the people and trying to fit in. i hate mingling around people that i barely knew, but what the heck, i cant live without friends. I am very blessed because each time i mingle into a small group of friend , they turn out to be wonderful people. So, im wonderful too. hehe
v. When i really like a song, i would search for it by hook or by crook at the internet, and download it. I'll transfer it to my mp3, and i'll listen to it over, over, over, and OVER again until i get bored. that would take me about 2 days, then i delete the song, then i'll search for a new one! then i'll donwload it.. then i'll transfer... good... hehe
vi. i dont fancy gadgets, such as brand new handphone or PSP, or Ipod.. i'd rather spend my money on clothing or eating. now spending your money on eating is a very good habit, which can make you happy, and full at the same time. not mentioning the calories and fats that u will gain at the end of the day but dont you think dip in and indulge the food are the most satisfying moments ever? i mean.. when im depressed, i'd rather eat a bowl of chocolate ice cream or a big mug of milo. There's nothing matters anymore, just the food and you.. my oh my..
vii. I'm an art person. i'm not saying that i'm very good at art but i have passion for them. my adobe photoshop, my guitar, my keyboard, my music notes are my best companions. back when im still in uitm, i joined the english language club and i did most of the posters and banners for our activities. i can stay up late just to finish my editing job, and waking up tomorrow, show the work to my bos ( Sarah ), print it out and stick it to the notice board. I dont get paid for these, its just something that i love to do. and music.. i can play guitar and keyboard. not so well, but at least i can play my own music whenever i feel like i want to. i'm dying to learn how to play the drum. But there's nobody who can teach me so i guess i just have to forget about that one.
3. Pass kepada 15 orang award ni.
erm... this is very hard because i dont know how to tag people in this blog. i'm sorry....:( but you can always copy these down and paste it to your blog, start a new one!! hehe..
4. Beritahu kepada 15 orang yang bertuah ni bahawa diorang dapat award ni.
eventhough i didn't tag any people, but i still want to give you all this reward. thanks for dropping by and for all the comments. thank you!
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| to all my followers and those who reads my blog |
due to my lack of knowledge on tagging people inside this post, you can copy these down and paste it onto your blog but you don't have to do it if you're busy saving the world (roll eyes). To be honest, I'm hoping you'd do it so I could read about your 7 juicy details. Cheers :)
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